Oct 17, 2008 20:06
1. i wish you'd stop saying how much you want to be here. its like u think here is some salvation. its not. it has just as many problems as where you are now... the only different is your on your own here.
2. Im excited for next year and the possibility of you coming, im just not gonna accept it until its concrete... i've heard this plan a million times before i wont get my hopes up.
3. im not sure how things will mix with you here... i realllly hope well.
4. i hope you come here, and prove everyone wrong, and prove your here for the right reasons, you can't fuck up here. please don't fuck up.
5. i think your being really unhealthy with your "diet"... and its clear why your doing it. I just want to see you happy and healthy. you can come to me, ill help. i promise.
6. STOP telling me about all the clubs your in all the events you have going...its not a contest.
7. I wish you weren't soo hypochondriatic... its unhealthy to think something is always wrong. Im scared one day something may actually be wrong, and ill think ... its just you being hypochondriatic.
8. i wish you would call more. But im glad you don't call. Your not good for me. I can't really believe i let things go on as long as i did. I really believed things would end differently. Im relieved they didn't.... you don't deserve all i was willing to give you. Ur so immature.
9. I like you. I don't know you but Im ok with that.
10. i miss you.
11. please be ok while im up here, i need you to be okay... for me.
12. Instead of waiting for me to fail constantly, how about focusing that energy on getting your own kids in order. I never tried to be anything but loyal to both of them. So I lied to you, I had to, they asked me too. I didn't know how to handle things, what was I supposed to do? Stop judging me. It hurts.
13. I miss you so much!!! I can't wait to see you and your crew at halloween!!!!!!! ^-^ we're funna get crunk!
14. I think you and your boytoy are so cute together. I hope our kittens can have playdates.