Oh my god I hate this
I have been working on this one Religion essay for the last two weeks. I've consulted fifteen books on tantra, meditation, yoga, mantra, yantras, et cetera.
I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I AM STUDYING OR WHAT I AM SUPPOSED TO WRITE ABOUT.
This is actually really stressful, because the essay is worth 26% of my final grade, and I totally have no idea what to do even though I've put so much time into the paper. All of the questions confuse me.
'What is the tantric view of the body?' - Well, there are some power points within people, they're quite spiritual, and then there's the kundalini which is serpent energy and...fuck, I dunno.
'What is the function of pilgrimage in Indian Tantra?' Er...well, people go to Benares to gain peace before they die. Is that one Tantra-specific? Shit, everything I am finding is talking about pithas - what are pithas? Ok, I understand there are FOUR pithas, and they are in four cities...wait, what? There are FIFTY ONE pithas? WHAT IS GOING ON?
'In what way does the story of Bhairava function as a myth of transgression within Hinduism?' - Bhairava, that's the god that come from Siva when Brahma or whatever didn't invite Siva to his birthday party. So Siva got really mad, and birthed Bhairava, who comittied Brahmanicide by cutting off the top head of Brahman with his pinky. Then Bhairava walked around for like, 12 years, and was then cleared of all sin when he reached Benares. I guess I could just talk about Benares, but how do I get so many thousands of words out of that? Fuck.
'Discuss the symbolism and religious significance of violence, death and destruction in relation to female Hindu deities.' Well, I know Kali is the crazy goddess with skulls around her neck, who is totally black, and cut off her head only to feed it and two other people with her blood. I believe she represents aggressive sexuality. I don't know of any other Hindu deities that are female with the exception of the Goddess, Deni, who is really ALL goddesses or something? Seriously, fuck Hinduism - I don't understand it at all despite numerous attempts to do so.
It's so bad that even Wikipedia and google searchs aren't helping. Why is nothing being clear? Why am I not understanding any of this? AAAHHH!!
It's due midday tomorrow. I'm tired, despite drinking nearly a litre of Mountain Dew. God help me.
:( All of my classes are fun, even this one - but this essay is the worst thing in the world.
I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I AM STUDYING OR WHAT I AM SUPPOSED TO WRITE ABOUT.
This is actually really stressful, because the essay is worth 26% of my final grade, and I totally have no idea what to do even though I've put so much time into the paper. All of the questions confuse me.
'What is the tantric view of the body?' - Well, there are some power points within people, they're quite spiritual, and then there's the kundalini which is serpent energy and...fuck, I dunno.
'What is the function of pilgrimage in Indian Tantra?' Er...well, people go to Benares to gain peace before they die. Is that one Tantra-specific? Shit, everything I am finding is talking about pithas - what are pithas? Ok, I understand there are FOUR pithas, and they are in four cities...wait, what? There are FIFTY ONE pithas? WHAT IS GOING ON?
'In what way does the story of Bhairava function as a myth of transgression within Hinduism?' - Bhairava, that's the god that come from Siva when Brahma or whatever didn't invite Siva to his birthday party. So Siva got really mad, and birthed Bhairava, who comittied Brahmanicide by cutting off the top head of Brahman with his pinky. Then Bhairava walked around for like, 12 years, and was then cleared of all sin when he reached Benares. I guess I could just talk about Benares, but how do I get so many thousands of words out of that? Fuck.
'Discuss the symbolism and religious significance of violence, death and destruction in relation to female Hindu deities.' Well, I know Kali is the crazy goddess with skulls around her neck, who is totally black, and cut off her head only to feed it and two other people with her blood. I believe she represents aggressive sexuality. I don't know of any other Hindu deities that are female with the exception of the Goddess, Deni, who is really ALL goddesses or something? Seriously, fuck Hinduism - I don't understand it at all despite numerous attempts to do so.
It's so bad that even Wikipedia and google searchs aren't helping. Why is nothing being clear? Why am I not understanding any of this? AAAHHH!!
It's due midday tomorrow. I'm tired, despite drinking nearly a litre of Mountain Dew. God help me.
:( All of my classes are fun, even this one - but this essay is the worst thing in the world.