i <3 Robert Scott Sweren
i saw Scott. i flew across the country to Maryland to see Scott. we hadn't seen eachother in over two years! seeing him did exactly what i knew it would. it put my pathetic mind back in it's place. i've been in love with him since i was 15 years old. i think i keep dating guys so that i'll have someone to think about other than Scott. i don't know why i never give up trying to fill his place with someone temporary. thinking about him puts a smile on my face. he is the most handsome man i have ever seen. the best part is that he & i are really good friends. not boyFRIEND/girlFRIEND, or FRIENDS with benefits...we are jsut really good friends who care a lot about eachother. if we didn't live on opposite sides of the country we would definatly be together. in a way i think it is good we arent a couple right now. we are both so busy with our own lives right now, working on our seperate careers. i wouldn't be surprised though if in the next 5 years he & i figured out a way to be together. it's a process that we are slowly working on. & it all started with this trip. i think our parents are figuring out that we mean a lot to eachother & nothing is going to stop tus from seeing eachother. we are trying to get his parents to send him to LA as a Hannukah present. then i'll go out & visit again in the late spring, & he'll come visit me for my birthday. if we could manage to see eachother 4 times a year, that would be awesome!
im so in love with him.
im so in love with him.