FUCK SHIT FUCK SHIT FUCK SHIT
IM SO FUCKING CONFUSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im tired of this year. im done. i feel like i have aged 5 years this year, & IT'S NOT EVEN OVER! i have fallen in love, been completely heartbroken, lost the friendship with my "roommate", stopped speaking to my mother, & on top of everything else, i went through the hardest thing i have ever gone through 100% ON MY OWN...& less than a handfull of people know about it. i trust too easily, & i get walked all over cause of it. i need to get away. far far away. i can't deal with one more thing. there are 3 people i can talk to about anything- Lydia, Scott & Megan. im so glad Megan & i have become so close. she might be the best thing that has happened to me this year. my mind is racing with thoughts. i can't take it. im also glad my dad & brother moved to Orange County. im going down there this weekend, & i can't wait. i wish i didnt cover up my problems with a smile. it probably isn't healthy but it makes me seem like i am happy. im not. not this year. over all, i am not doing well. but i am strong & will pull through this.
im tired of this year. im done. i feel like i have aged 5 years this year, & IT'S NOT EVEN OVER! i have fallen in love, been completely heartbroken, lost the friendship with my "roommate", stopped speaking to my mother, & on top of everything else, i went through the hardest thing i have ever gone through 100% ON MY OWN...& less than a handfull of people know about it. i trust too easily, & i get walked all over cause of it. i need to get away. far far away. i can't deal with one more thing. there are 3 people i can talk to about anything- Lydia, Scott & Megan. im so glad Megan & i have become so close. she might be the best thing that has happened to me this year. my mind is racing with thoughts. i can't take it. im also glad my dad & brother moved to Orange County. im going down there this weekend, & i can't wait. i wish i didnt cover up my problems with a smile. it probably isn't healthy but it makes me seem like i am happy. im not. not this year. over all, i am not doing well. but i am strong & will pull through this.