...hello again old friend
omg i totally forgot about this emo blog of mine!
my entries this year have been few and far in-between
wow my last entry was about hobble's shattering of the matatorsals
brief review since then to now...
1 hobbles christmas and K town
2 deciding i was going to pass out before midnight
3 kinda succeeded after puking on galen
4 confessed to both self and galen i liked him
5 said goodbye to my bffl's TEAR!
6 arrived at SCU too soon..homesick
7 2 weeks of rain
8 unfortunuately tumbled into a deep depression
9 got sent to counseling
10 valentines day... finally gave dan my number
11 bone thugs and hook up
12 found out about the whole coke dealing thing
13 decided i needed to go home for easter
14 went home.... I'm glad i did
15 san diego (best place in the world)
16 St. Fransis
17 neezer came down to visit
18 jimmy eat world
19 420 in santa cruz
20 accepted crack house for what it is
21 10 days straight (and saw herold and kumar)
22 got my single in SLURP
23 cinco de mayo
24 met andy no makeup and glasses!
24.5 SCORE.... ooo wait HIT and a MISS
25 surfing! clare jacks and jim
26 andrea ended in pacifica
27 sworn in as class senator
27.5 dads heart attack scare
28 good talk with chaia
28 memorial day weekend
i dont even feel like that encompasses nearly everything even in the least. i feel like i'm a completely different person from point 1 to 28. feels like too much has changed in such a short time college time is time on CRACK!
i know about the dark time, and how, like night, its never permanent, but i cant let it effect my relationships/work.... i learned god is in everything, the ocean is a cruel mistress, i realized what i wanted in a guy and why i'd consider warily settling for less, i know why i love my family so much, i have come to terms with my personal problems, not making fast friends, getting too caught up in things, coming off smarter than i actually am which fucks me over, being a slob. And making these problems into good things..... making good friends, realizing when others are caught up in things and voicing reason, knowing i know nothing (just like everyone else) never expecting someone else knows everything either, accepting not everywhere is clean, e.g. public rest stops
i have this new understanding of happiness as balancing act.. its not about being "happy" its about not being sad
im excited about next year cause i chose where i want to be
i want to be on AS as a senator nerd (government)(polis)(service)
i want to be in SLURP nerd (nature)(religion)(self-actualization)(salvation)
i want to be a classical guitarist painter nerd (music)(expression)(emotion)
i dunno i feel pretty fufilled with my line-up well see what else pans out, for now thats pretty much it
my entries this year have been few and far in-between
wow my last entry was about hobble's shattering of the matatorsals
brief review since then to now...
1 hobbles christmas and K town
2 deciding i was going to pass out before midnight
3 kinda succeeded after puking on galen
4 confessed to both self and galen i liked him
5 said goodbye to my bffl's TEAR!
6 arrived at SCU too soon..homesick
7 2 weeks of rain
8 unfortunuately tumbled into a deep depression
9 got sent to counseling
10 valentines day... finally gave dan my number
11 bone thugs and hook up
12 found out about the whole coke dealing thing
13 decided i needed to go home for easter
14 went home.... I'm glad i did
15 san diego (best place in the world)
16 St. Fransis
17 neezer came down to visit
18 jimmy eat world
19 420 in santa cruz
20 accepted crack house for what it is
21 10 days straight (and saw herold and kumar)
22 got my single in SLURP
23 cinco de mayo
24 met andy no makeup and glasses!
24.5 SCORE.... ooo wait HIT and a MISS
25 surfing! clare jacks and jim
26 andrea ended in pacifica
27 sworn in as class senator
27.5 dads heart attack scare
28 good talk with chaia
28 memorial day weekend
i dont even feel like that encompasses nearly everything even in the least. i feel like i'm a completely different person from point 1 to 28. feels like too much has changed in such a short time college time is time on CRACK!
i know about the dark time, and how, like night, its never permanent, but i cant let it effect my relationships/work.... i learned god is in everything, the ocean is a cruel mistress, i realized what i wanted in a guy and why i'd consider warily settling for less, i know why i love my family so much, i have come to terms with my personal problems, not making fast friends, getting too caught up in things, coming off smarter than i actually am which fucks me over, being a slob. And making these problems into good things..... making good friends, realizing when others are caught up in things and voicing reason, knowing i know nothing (just like everyone else) never expecting someone else knows everything either, accepting not everywhere is clean, e.g. public rest stops
i have this new understanding of happiness as balancing act.. its not about being "happy" its about not being sad
im excited about next year cause i chose where i want to be
i want to be on AS as a senator nerd (government)(polis)(service)
i want to be in SLURP nerd (nature)(religion)(self-actualization)(salvation)
i want to be a classical guitarist painter nerd (music)(expression)(emotion)
i dunno i feel pretty fufilled with my line-up well see what else pans out, for now thats pretty much it