life is crazzy. lol

[iloveken]

hey to all. well its been a long time.. but anyways i have a lot to say but im just going to shorten it all b/c i need to go to bed soon. but anyways well from my last journal me and eric did not break up.. but like a few weeks or so after that we actually did break up for a day lol. but it was over some crap like always. and now we've been going out for 2 months and in 10 days is our 3 month so im kinda excited. lol. but yeah we're doing pretty good now i guess. i mean we've really been through some crap with him and stuff he does and all that and ive been told a few times that im stupid for staying with him.. but i just love him too much to just walk out and never see him again. so im gonna stand by him like i promised him from the beginning. but anyways life has been good i guess. today wasnt a great day b/c things pissed me off. but then about an hour ago eric called me and made me smile so much that i cried lol. just b/c he told me he loved me more than anything and would give me anything in the world. hes just so great and can always make me smile no matter how bad my day was. hes... amazing and i cant wait to spend the rest of my life with him. hopefully it happens b/c i just really cant see my life without him in it. it was funny b/c for some reason, today we were talkin on the phone and i just had an image of how our life will be if we get married... me sittin there readin a great book and drinkin some coffee and him playin his playstation and gettin mad at it lol. and on the weekends we'll have big parties and everyone will come over and spend the night b/c they're too drunk to leave lol. its gonna be great.. but idk. b/c he wants us to get married right when i get out of school and i really dont want to b/c i feel like theres more that i want to do before i get married. so i guess we'll just have to see. i wouldnt mind having a nice ring to show off to friends lol. naw i dont care right now i just wish he was here to hold me in his arms until i fall aslee..(sighs).. lol. yeah im kinda dumb about that huh? oh well i dont care. i really do want him to be here though... and u know somethin funny? eric has always been the type to no matter what, he was going to sleep with whoever he was dating. im the 1st girl that hes been going out with that we havent done anything.. so im really proud of myself. :) but anyways well i think im going to go to bed. so i just wanted to update on some things. so bye for now love ya'll g'night
xoxoRACHE-FACExoxo