What the hell am i doing?
How is it that i feel like one day my life is all together and the next day its falling apart!? These are the top 5 concerns that are ALWAYS in my life:
1. Job
2. Money to pay off credit cards
3. School/planning for a career
4. Finding a bf/getting married
5. My weight
And it seemed as though everything was set. But now im feeling stressed. I mean im still ok on 1, 2, and 4. But im decided not to become a firefighter and so now im stressed about a career. Also i lost 10 lbs in the past 3 weeks (yay) but today i binged and ate a lot of food, which made me throw it all back up. So now im stressed about my weight.
The weight thing i can fix because ill be working 60 hours and week and wont have time to eat, so ill lose weight. But i dont know what im going to do about the career thing!! When jared and i get married, i will have to find a job wherever we live. By then i hope to have worked at west for 6 months and will have my credit card debt payed off.
I dont know why im stressed. It actually all planned out, but maybe thats my problem! Its TOO planned and im afraid something will screw up. I guess this whole "getting my life together" thing has caught me off guard. I need to calm down and realize that everything IS PERFECT and WILL BE even more perfect. I mean i have a job now, a fiance, and im going to get out of debt!! I should be happy!
Well im sorry about this pointless crap, but thanks for reading, and leave some advice if ya want. <3H
1. Job
2. Money to pay off credit cards
3. School/planning for a career
4. Finding a bf/getting married
5. My weight
And it seemed as though everything was set. But now im feeling stressed. I mean im still ok on 1, 2, and 4. But im decided not to become a firefighter and so now im stressed about a career. Also i lost 10 lbs in the past 3 weeks (yay) but today i binged and ate a lot of food, which made me throw it all back up. So now im stressed about my weight.
The weight thing i can fix because ill be working 60 hours and week and wont have time to eat, so ill lose weight. But i dont know what im going to do about the career thing!! When jared and i get married, i will have to find a job wherever we live. By then i hope to have worked at west for 6 months and will have my credit card debt payed off.
I dont know why im stressed. It actually all planned out, but maybe thats my problem! Its TOO planned and im afraid something will screw up. I guess this whole "getting my life together" thing has caught me off guard. I need to calm down and realize that everything IS PERFECT and WILL BE even more perfect. I mean i have a job now, a fiance, and im going to get out of debt!! I should be happy!
Well im sorry about this pointless crap, but thanks for reading, and leave some advice if ya want. <3H