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So basically I've been having shitty days and good nights for the past, oh, week or so. I've only managed to make myself more confused about my life, when everything closest to my heart seems to tumble down into pieces but before it hits the ground, it pulls a rewind move and rebuilds. Wow, I'm so confused.
But it's not my fault, my life is too crazy for me to understand right now.
I'm sick and tired of wanting to get rid of these attachments to people that I'm certain if they actually disappeared, I would be lost and alone. It makes absolutely no sense, but whatever.
It makes me sad that I can tell a complete stranger about my family problems, but I don't want to talk to Briton about them. Why do I really care that much about what he thinks of me? It's not worth it...
It makes me really happy that I have Aleisha here this summer! I don't know what I'd do without her right now
Had a fun, tipsy night at Daley Park, aka Tempe Town Lake Jr. (it was so irrigated), getting random attacks from sprinklers and a crack box providing music.
Going to see The Loveblisters tonight, I think.
I hope I still get to go to San Fran and Portland at all this summer.
Ok, if i didn't have people in my life that loved me and would do anything for me, and vice versa, I could potentially do anything that I desired to do, within able means. I would have no ties, so I could move around as much as I wanted, take off whenever, go where the wind blows....seriously, I want to do that, I do. But I love my family too much, and even if I don't want to be responsible for myself, in the way that most people are, I have to be, because I care about them too much. So, right now...Love=Chains....but that's not right, which is why I'm so confused.
But it's not my fault, my life is too crazy for me to understand right now.
I'm sick and tired of wanting to get rid of these attachments to people that I'm certain if they actually disappeared, I would be lost and alone. It makes absolutely no sense, but whatever.
It makes me sad that I can tell a complete stranger about my family problems, but I don't want to talk to Briton about them. Why do I really care that much about what he thinks of me? It's not worth it...
It makes me really happy that I have Aleisha here this summer! I don't know what I'd do without her right now
Had a fun, tipsy night at Daley Park, aka Tempe Town Lake Jr. (it was so irrigated), getting random attacks from sprinklers and a crack box providing music.
Going to see The Loveblisters tonight, I think.
I hope I still get to go to San Fran and Portland at all this summer.
Ok, if i didn't have people in my life that loved me and would do anything for me, and vice versa, I could potentially do anything that I desired to do, within able means. I would have no ties, so I could move around as much as I wanted, take off whenever, go where the wind blows....seriously, I want to do that, I do. But I love my family too much, and even if I don't want to be responsible for myself, in the way that most people are, I have to be, because I care about them too much. So, right now...Love=Chains....but that's not right, which is why I'm so confused.