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Work is exhausting. I think that getting up early, swimming in a disgusting pool, coming home exhausted, fighting with my parents and dealing with my dying dog, going out and staying out really late, then doing the same thing the next day.. is basically predisposing me to be in a bad mood.
No matter what comes up, I'm forcing myself to stay in tonight. I'm gonna finish the laundry that I started over the weekend and organize my room a bit. I will be ASLEEP by midnight, so I can sleep for 6 1/2 hours. That is so much compared to what I've been getting lately. Tomorrow I'm going into work at 7:30 because I'm scheduled for extended care, but I am leaving at 4:30... not gonna get suckered into staying for 2 1/2 extra hours like I did today. It's for my own sanity's sake.
It seems that nothing in my life is working out the way that I've planned. And what have I learned from this? I need to stop planning. Then I can't be disappointed. Maybe Stephen will make a recovery, but I don't really see what he would have changed. Move on. Find someone worth my time. And that person is not Alex.
No matter what comes up, I'm forcing myself to stay in tonight. I'm gonna finish the laundry that I started over the weekend and organize my room a bit. I will be ASLEEP by midnight, so I can sleep for 6 1/2 hours. That is so much compared to what I've been getting lately. Tomorrow I'm going into work at 7:30 because I'm scheduled for extended care, but I am leaving at 4:30... not gonna get suckered into staying for 2 1/2 extra hours like I did today. It's for my own sanity's sake.
It seems that nothing in my life is working out the way that I've planned. And what have I learned from this? I need to stop planning. Then I can't be disappointed. Maybe Stephen will make a recovery, but I don't really see what he would have changed. Move on. Find someone worth my time. And that person is not Alex.