someday... I will have

[iloveforks]

a man that doesn't have to lie about loving me.  
a man that won't have to choose between me and someone else.
a man that loves me and only me.
a man that I can wake up next to without guilt.

someday I will have this.
right now I don't.
I'm in the same boat I was in 8 months ago.
and I'm the only one to blame.
I need to walk away before it gets to hard to do so...
it already is too hard.

I deserve better than this don't I?
they say I do.
but I just keep settling for half a life.

I take what I can... and then suffer later.

I feel it coming. 
all I can do is slow it down.