Horribly alone.
this weekend has sucked.
I hate being alone.
it makes me hate this apartment.
I hate sleeping alone, because I'm not use to it.
I hate wondering around here... like I'm looking for the people who aren't there.
so... I go for a walk.
but all the hussle and bussle of Tudor/Lake Otis.. all the people...
make me feel more alone.
there is no winning.
I work all the time. all. the. time.
where has my summer gone???
it just feels like everyone around me gets to go out and have fun... and actually sleep the next day without worry.
I do go out. but I pay for it the next day...
and after work all I do is come home and sleep.
4 hours here... 3 hours there.
I'm so sick of it.
after my 12 day work stretch...
I hope my birthday weekend rocks.
I deserve it.
I hate being alone.
it makes me hate this apartment.
I hate sleeping alone, because I'm not use to it.
I hate wondering around here... like I'm looking for the people who aren't there.
so... I go for a walk.
but all the hussle and bussle of Tudor/Lake Otis.. all the people...
make me feel more alone.
there is no winning.
I work all the time. all. the. time.
where has my summer gone???
it just feels like everyone around me gets to go out and have fun... and actually sleep the next day without worry.
I do go out. but I pay for it the next day...
and after work all I do is come home and sleep.
4 hours here... 3 hours there.
I'm so sick of it.
after my 12 day work stretch...
I hope my birthday weekend rocks.
I deserve it.