this is too deep . .
alright so i know its been awhile since i updated . but whatever ive just been feeling pretty crappy lately and i need somewhere to write it all down in . and since no one reads this anyways . i decided why not here
so yeah whatever . its been over two months now . and you think id be over it . but im not . its really different . there was no reason explained it was just "alright im ignoring you now" well i actually didnt get that . i didnt get anything . but whatever you get the picture . and i dont understand why this all happened in the first place . cause seriously who just stops talking to someone all of a sudden and no one on the planet knows a reason . not even their best friends . dont you tell your bestfriends everything? cause i know i do . and if i had a reason for not talking to someone . they would be the first people to know . how does someone keep something inside like that . it must be really hard . or they must not care . and i would like to think that you do care . even just a little . otherwise you sure do like to stare alot . and you cant even say you dont cause other people see it beside me . i cant understand why you cant just talk to me . i would walk up to you and say something but it feels really weird . and i want to talk to you online but i cant bring myself to IM you because i dont know if you would ignore me or answer . but two months come on! is this the way you saw things . us not even friends anymore . thats not what i wanted . i did want more . but i know i cant have that so all im asking for is my friend back . its really killing me . and if i think about it . i never wanted any of this to happen in the first place . i told myself in the beginning of the year i wasnt going to let it happen . but then only after one night of talking . it happend . it was something i couldnt control . and now its way out of control . so i dont know what to say anymore i just think we should fix this . honestly . im sick of crying . sick of seeing you and wanting to just i dunno scream at you for all of this, break down in tears, hug you? probably all of them . im just sick of everything . if i could change it . i wouldnt cause it was fun . but i just want you back in my life . anyway i can . [and im not desperate]
so yeah i love my friends tho<3 they are my heart and soul
ill update later . if you even bother to read this . please comment it . thanks a bunch
xO.Kk