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my pants are wet...i am at school...i was super late for class, but luckly marcelo, my brazilian friend, called our teacher to tell her that him and i were going to be late. he is not even here yet.
ben has a ouiji board and last night we summoned the spirit of creamy's great grandfather and he basically told us that creamy is ben-hur and therefore there is a God. i like that ben believes in things like that. he is beautiful.
this week has been so stressful. i cried at school yesterday because i was so confused about my work. i was doing this project that was just awful....i took pics of casinos and i was gonna show how horrible indian casinos are...but that was gross...it made me feel terrible and physically ill. and i almost made ben cry...i cried...a lot. i don't know why i listen to other people, like my teacher, who needs meaning in art. i need to show what i think is beauty...what is quiet and simple...that is how i am and what i like...quiet and simple things. and beauty...no more ugliness. it is easier to show things that are ugly than it is to show what is beautiful. i have to remember that. ben is very helpful...i must not be afraid to ask for his help because he has helped me in many ways.
anyhow...i miss home and i wish i was going back for spring break but all i am doing is working...well, i will work on my art, but i have to work at isda & co like 4 days next week, and i am starting my work study job at school monday in the slide library. oi..i had long island iced teas the other night and they have made me feel horrible...i think liquor is not good for me...i will stick to beer and the occasional cosmo.
ben has a ouiji board and last night we summoned the spirit of creamy's great grandfather and he basically told us that creamy is ben-hur and therefore there is a God. i like that ben believes in things like that. he is beautiful.
this week has been so stressful. i cried at school yesterday because i was so confused about my work. i was doing this project that was just awful....i took pics of casinos and i was gonna show how horrible indian casinos are...but that was gross...it made me feel terrible and physically ill. and i almost made ben cry...i cried...a lot. i don't know why i listen to other people, like my teacher, who needs meaning in art. i need to show what i think is beauty...what is quiet and simple...that is how i am and what i like...quiet and simple things. and beauty...no more ugliness. it is easier to show things that are ugly than it is to show what is beautiful. i have to remember that. ben is very helpful...i must not be afraid to ask for his help because he has helped me in many ways.
anyhow...i miss home and i wish i was going back for spring break but all i am doing is working...well, i will work on my art, but i have to work at isda & co like 4 days next week, and i am starting my work study job at school monday in the slide library. oi..i had long island iced teas the other night and they have made me feel horrible...i think liquor is not good for me...i will stick to beer and the occasional cosmo.