i wish I was crazy so I could dance with the people who give me pills.
So lately, I have been questioning myself WHY can't I meet someone....more often than I already do. It's just depressing to find myself in class...when all the other people are talking amongst one another...and then there's me. I don't make friends very well....but really am i THAT avoidable...to where not one person can't talk to me? Even when I try to talk to other people it's like there's a warning sign above my head that reads "don't talk to her!" It's strange.
Also, I've been thinking a lot about what's going to happen in the future. Will I be happy...will I ever meet someone? I sat and listened to a conversation my mom was having with my aunt one day. My Mom was talking about the "beautiful" towels she bought at Meijer's. I mean...will I really find towels to be beautiful one day? Cause I mean, right now it's just something to wipe my hands with. It's just amazing to think of how a person's interests change. And it's also amazing how depressed I get. I just wish someone would come into my life and just change it completely. I mean I love my friends and I don't know what I would do without them...but they can't really give me what a boyfriend can. I am not asking for a fucking proposal...a simple heartfelt compliment from the opposite sex that I have feelings for, would be fantastic. It just seems completely unimaginable. I just wish something wonderful would surprise me about the idea of love, cause as of right now I think it sucks. And I don't want to feel that way about love cause it's supposed to be a beautiful concept and BLAH BLAH BLAH. So, is it too much to ask to find someone to help me change my mind? Cause everyone else has. And another plus of being in love is that this will be the last depressed entry of mine that you'll have to read if you're even interested in reading my journal...if it hasn't become predictable.
I am done.
Also, I've been thinking a lot about what's going to happen in the future. Will I be happy...will I ever meet someone? I sat and listened to a conversation my mom was having with my aunt one day. My Mom was talking about the "beautiful" towels she bought at Meijer's. I mean...will I really find towels to be beautiful one day? Cause I mean, right now it's just something to wipe my hands with. It's just amazing to think of how a person's interests change. And it's also amazing how depressed I get. I just wish someone would come into my life and just change it completely. I mean I love my friends and I don't know what I would do without them...but they can't really give me what a boyfriend can. I am not asking for a fucking proposal...a simple heartfelt compliment from the opposite sex that I have feelings for, would be fantastic. It just seems completely unimaginable. I just wish something wonderful would surprise me about the idea of love, cause as of right now I think it sucks. And I don't want to feel that way about love cause it's supposed to be a beautiful concept and BLAH BLAH BLAH. So, is it too much to ask to find someone to help me change my mind? Cause everyone else has. And another plus of being in love is that this will be the last depressed entry of mine that you'll have to read if you're even interested in reading my journal...if it hasn't become predictable.
I am done.