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So its been a really long time since I have wrote in here, but I dont think people really check it anymore that often. Which is good! Because I loved getting in trouble for writting in my own journal...haha! Anyways Im frustrated with life. I dont like college. I am having fun but not like everyone else. I have met people but they arent nearly as cool as my old friends. Dubuque is boring. I dont drink because I dont want to get a ticket. And I miss it. I really should be doing my homework for my next class that is in like an hour but this seems more important right now.
I dont understand life... I dont know what to do with my feelings. I am afraid of what will happen if I let them out but I am also afraid if I keep them in to long what will also happen. Things have gotten pretty intense and I dont know what I would do without it. I spend more than half my day thinking about it and I know I am in over my head... Im just scared. I want it. But I dont...but I do...but what will happen after? I am just so confused on what to do. And why do they have to act like its no big deal. Maybe because it really is no big deal at all and in the end we are just friends. Maybe he is the best friend I will ever have?
:/ what to do what to do!