and all that i know is that i know nothing.
Every time I write in hear it’s because I am upset.
So today I'll talk about you and me and what is wrong.
We see each other every day.
I love seeing your face.
I'm not sure what it would be like if I had to go on living life without you.
Right now it seems as if I am going to have to though.
Lately it seems as if it isn't worth it anymore.
You have changed so much in the past 3 years.
Not good always good but not always bad.
You are more outgoing and outspoken.
It seems as if you don't have the same feelings for me.
At least not like the feelings you had at the beginning.
It seems as if I am just comforting to you.
Like you just in love with the fact that you have a girlfriend.
Not necessarily in love with me.
But now you can't even tell me the feelings you have for me.
You use to all the time.
I have messages and surveys you filled out from a long time ago.
I saved them because they mean a lot to me.
You went from being lovey dovey on me to only showing me through sex.
Even then you don't even want to do that.
I am so lost as to how to get you to be in love with me like you were.
I think that I might be falling out of love with you because you won't show me.
I need that love and affection.
It seems like I want to be with you because it is comfortable.
I know almost everything there is to know about you.
You know almost everything about me.
I don't want to have to be with anyone else.
It just seems as if you don't love me.
I just want it to be like it was.
When you use to be excited to see me
Excited to be my boyfriend.Now you don't care.
You say you do, but we both know that you don't.
Its just a matter of time before the events unfold again.
You will tell me, "I don't think we should be together anymore."
Instead of begging you to take me back this time I will accept it.
You no longer want to be with me.
I'm sure that you only took me back last time because you felt bad for me.
You broke my heart into a thousand pieces.
You ignored me, you denied me, you didn't fuckin care about me.
It was all because you just wanted a break from "us."
What makes you think you won't want another one?
I'm sick of worrying every day.
I'm afraid one day you are just going to wake up and realize you don't want me.
Just like February 10th.
I'm sick of feeling like a nobody.
If we are going to end up breaking up again, there will not be a 2nd chance.
I begged you.
You never cared.
I don't think you have since that day.
I'm just so lost in the emotions.
They wrap around me like a blanket of darkness.
It consumes me.
Yes, I took my pill this morning.
It never seems as if it works though.
I just want to run away from this place and never come back.
I don't want to experience love anymore.
I don't want to be close to anyone anymore.
I just need to get away.
I just need to cut.
So today I'll talk about you and me and what is wrong.
We see each other every day.
I love seeing your face.
I'm not sure what it would be like if I had to go on living life without you.
Right now it seems as if I am going to have to though.
Lately it seems as if it isn't worth it anymore.
You have changed so much in the past 3 years.
Not good always good but not always bad.
You are more outgoing and outspoken.
It seems as if you don't have the same feelings for me.
At least not like the feelings you had at the beginning.
It seems as if I am just comforting to you.
Like you just in love with the fact that you have a girlfriend.
Not necessarily in love with me.
But now you can't even tell me the feelings you have for me.
You use to all the time.
I have messages and surveys you filled out from a long time ago.
I saved them because they mean a lot to me.
You went from being lovey dovey on me to only showing me through sex.
Even then you don't even want to do that.
I am so lost as to how to get you to be in love with me like you were.
I think that I might be falling out of love with you because you won't show me.
I need that love and affection.
It seems like I want to be with you because it is comfortable.
I know almost everything there is to know about you.
You know almost everything about me.
I don't want to have to be with anyone else.
It just seems as if you don't love me.
I just want it to be like it was.
When you use to be excited to see me
Excited to be my boyfriend.Now you don't care.
You say you do, but we both know that you don't.
Its just a matter of time before the events unfold again.
You will tell me, "I don't think we should be together anymore."
Instead of begging you to take me back this time I will accept it.
You no longer want to be with me.
I'm sure that you only took me back last time because you felt bad for me.
You broke my heart into a thousand pieces.
You ignored me, you denied me, you didn't fuckin care about me.
It was all because you just wanted a break from "us."
What makes you think you won't want another one?
I'm sick of worrying every day.
I'm afraid one day you are just going to wake up and realize you don't want me.
Just like February 10th.
I'm sick of feeling like a nobody.
If we are going to end up breaking up again, there will not be a 2nd chance.
I begged you.
You never cared.
I don't think you have since that day.
I'm just so lost in the emotions.
They wrap around me like a blanket of darkness.
It consumes me.
Yes, I took my pill this morning.
It never seems as if it works though.
I just want to run away from this place and never come back.
I don't want to experience love anymore.
I don't want to be close to anyone anymore.
I just need to get away.
I just need to cut.