For someone who has felt so strong..it's amazing I'm completly gone
I think it's about time for an update with some meaning to it. Cause you know me, I usually do lots of long entrys. So besides the base of what's going on in my life, maybe I shoukd get a little more into detail.
Let's just get the whole where I stand with Rob deal over with. Basically from what I see, we're fine with each other. I would not exactly say friends though. I feel like I should write to him sometimes, but then there are the times when I really don't want to. My writing to him is a lost cause, and honestly has no meaning. Plus, I really don't have time for it. I have more important things and people to worry about. So that is that. I'm pretty confident things will remain this way. And that's a closure I can deal with.
Now time to write about the more important one. Gavin. So amazing. I never thought that this is where we'd be, but I'm beyond happy that this is the way we are. Our phone conversations are incredible. I'm always smiling. Except when he makes fun of me and my thick Jersey accent. I just can't believe how much he can make me smile. March is way too far away. But I'll just have to deal like I do with everything else.
So I have to come up with a plan for when I see him. I don't want to be cheesy though. But hey, I have 50 days to plan this out. It gives me more than enough time to make it all perfection.
The friends are doing good. :) Melon and I are the giddy 12 year ols with out new found loves. haha, but I don't care cause I'm so fucking happy. This time, I won't let anything get in the way.
It's all just too good to be true.
"When I'm in the dark and all alone,
Dreaming that you'll walk right through my door.
It's then I know my heart is whole."
LeNd Me
Let's just get the whole where I stand with Rob deal over with. Basically from what I see, we're fine with each other. I would not exactly say friends though. I feel like I should write to him sometimes, but then there are the times when I really don't want to. My writing to him is a lost cause, and honestly has no meaning. Plus, I really don't have time for it. I have more important things and people to worry about. So that is that. I'm pretty confident things will remain this way. And that's a closure I can deal with.
Now time to write about the more important one. Gavin. So amazing. I never thought that this is where we'd be, but I'm beyond happy that this is the way we are. Our phone conversations are incredible. I'm always smiling. Except when he makes fun of me and my thick Jersey accent. I just can't believe how much he can make me smile. March is way too far away. But I'll just have to deal like I do with everything else.
So I have to come up with a plan for when I see him. I don't want to be cheesy though. But hey, I have 50 days to plan this out. It gives me more than enough time to make it all perfection.
The friends are doing good. :) Melon and I are the giddy 12 year ols with out new found loves. haha, but I don't care cause I'm so fucking happy. This time, I won't let anything get in the way.
It's all just too good to be true.
"When I'm in the dark and all alone,
Dreaming that you'll walk right through my door.
It's then I know my heart is whole."
LeNd Me