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i havent wrote in this thing in a while. well things have changed. i moved to flagstaff and i met a guy named Mike. he is absolutely gorgeous. we have only been together for a couple weeks but i am thinking he could be the one for me. we dont have any diffrences and we never get bored of eachother. i really like him. what else has happened well i talked to matt and he is doing good. he is still with his girlfriend and they have been dating for a while. he is finally out of the hospital and it has been 3 weeks and he hasnt done any drugs. he has been offered but he turned them down. he finally got the girl he wanted and he is completely happy. we really miss you aj. i am glad everything is going good for you and jordan. you guys seem very happy with eachother. i am not sure what has happened between you, jordan, and marcia but i hope you guys worked things out. i dont do any drugs anymore. i havent in a couple weeks and i am proud.
ashleigh,
i am very proud of you that you have turned your life around. at first i wasnt used to it and i didnt like how you were but now i do understand and i am so happy for you. i know alot of shit went down in your past. you have made it through the first year since vincent died. i know that was very hard of you to do. i thank jordan for being there for you through this time. i know you still miss lily a bunch because you guys were best friends. i know in your heart you will always remember vincent, lily, matt, and i hope me. i hope you will never forget about us. we all loved/love you and always will. matt and i have realized that it is time for you to move on and look forward to other things. there has been a few things i have kept from you and that i think you should know. that day when you tried to o.d. on drugs and i found you in the bathroom and we raced you to the hospital and they took you and called your parents. before i knew it lily, matt, me and your parents were all waiting. i went to the bathroom that was down the hallway and when i came out i saw lily looking in the window at you crying. i could hear the monitor go flat and then i knew that your life was over. than all of a sudden a doctor yelled she is pulling through and that was the first time you died and came back to life. that was the first time i realized how much you meant to me and lily. that was the first time i saw love in lilys eyes. i was so happy and at that moment you got a chance to start over and you did. i love you and i am proud.
ashleigh,
i am very proud of you that you have turned your life around. at first i wasnt used to it and i didnt like how you were but now i do understand and i am so happy for you. i know alot of shit went down in your past. you have made it through the first year since vincent died. i know that was very hard of you to do. i thank jordan for being there for you through this time. i know you still miss lily a bunch because you guys were best friends. i know in your heart you will always remember vincent, lily, matt, and i hope me. i hope you will never forget about us. we all loved/love you and always will. matt and i have realized that it is time for you to move on and look forward to other things. there has been a few things i have kept from you and that i think you should know. that day when you tried to o.d. on drugs and i found you in the bathroom and we raced you to the hospital and they took you and called your parents. before i knew it lily, matt, me and your parents were all waiting. i went to the bathroom that was down the hallway and when i came out i saw lily looking in the window at you crying. i could hear the monitor go flat and then i knew that your life was over. than all of a sudden a doctor yelled she is pulling through and that was the first time you died and came back to life. that was the first time i realized how much you meant to me and lily. that was the first time i saw love in lilys eyes. i was so happy and at that moment you got a chance to start over and you did. i love you and i am proud.