oh em gee! update.
yea so its been forever. well actually two weeks and one day but still. i remember being a huge LJ whore and now im all myspaced out. so thursday morning im going to WI which is gonna be the frickin shti! cuz i get to see my kami poo rugmunch weinerschnitzell nutthead! yes thats her full name thanx. so we're going to the kiel pinic duh and we're gonna take tons of pictures and it will be a grand time, as always. im just so excited!
then again im sad because this thursday is the last marketfest and i havent seen lorna or patrick since warped tour. and patrick said i was gonna be on the L-FACE show! and i was supposed to see Niko and get a hug! and i was also supposed to pay Bob Sand 5 dollars in Monopoly money and im hoping angie will now cuz i told stacy to give it to angie to give to bob. anyways its just gonna be sad but i know ill be having fun with kami too.
so i was mad at angie yesterday cuz she didnt sleepover but whatev cuz i realized i was just being a bithc about it. im so sick of being a bihtc. im a really big btchi. i need to start being nicer. also i need to work more cuz i realized i havent worked for a while and i need to get paid badly so i can pay my mumsy poo back. damn debts. but my birthday is coming up so i can always use some of that money to pay her annnd she said she might get a sewing machine!!! i want one so bad, itd be great. the two we have dont work.
wow i am the biggest dumbsas ever. our fridge leaks cuz its a piece of crap and we need a new one so anyway, i put a towel down and it was eventually it got all soaked so went downstairs and put it in that tub thing by the washer. before that i had spilled milk on my blanket cuz im a spiller and all clumsy. so i had to wash my blanket and i forgot about the towel. so the tub filled up with the washing water cuz the towel clogged the drain and then the water spilled all over the laundry room! it even went outside of the laundry room, it was just not good.
so my mom got home tonight and i miss her dearly. i have to pack tomorrow, and angie might come over later. its four in the fcuking morning and that is totally one of the used lyrics haha. im not using an LJ cut cuz i dont feel like it. yesterday i had my first piano lesson in like, what, 5 years! it was amazing and you dont even know my love for piano. the whole reason i started taking lessons again is because i really want to be able to play really good and i want to play me and the moon by so/co soooo bad. but when i was there i brought the cd and the sheet music and joyce, my teacher, has this cd player attached to the keyboard and she played along with the song and omg it was seriously one of the most amazing things ever. i just wanted to die there, but not really. the music was all everywhere, just swimming around my head and i couldnt stop smiling. i felt like i wasnt sure of being anywhere and i felt so out of place and i was just floating. im telling you it was amazing. and its crazy that music can do something like that.
so my computer is officially a lame face. its always "low disk space" but when i do a disk clean up it never works. so it takes like 2 hours to burn a single cd. and then i really wanted to burn one of the bright eyes cds i forgot what its called something about keeping ur ear to the ground but i was downloading the songs and my computer started being a tard and shutting down on me and for same lame ass reason my limewire wont work so screw the whole thing.
yep so i dont like him anymore. im over him. i dont know what it is that made me not like him really. its nuts, i mean two years of tearing myself up and crying over something thats so meaningless now. honestly i could careless if i ever saw him again, ever. i dont care if i never get payback, if i dont ever hurt him. and i hope hes really happy right now. its just weird that when you get over it, you feel sort of empty. like it was something that really takes a part of you and really makes you sad or in the beginning makes you really happy. and its really something thats on ur mind a lot and makes you super depressed. and when its all gone and swallowed you dont have those heavy feelings anymore. you dont have a reason to cry at night and no matter how hard you try you just cant choke it up. so ive got this gap now and soon enough it will be refilled but im in the between time right now. i always thought that when it was all done id be super happy and im not finding this happiness right now. im not depressed or anything but its just not as i expected it.
for my current problems, its pretty much friends. im so sick of being alone. i havent really hung out with anyone for almost a week. so ive been sitting in my room eating and getting fat. listening to music. getting the mail at 2. taking a shower at midnight. getting ready for nothing. but i am getting excited for school. i hope i can meet lots of new cool people. my mommy said we could go shopping at goodwill so im excited about that.
me and lorna had a conversation of lyrics today. it was "lover i dont have to love" by bright eyes and it was great. made me happy, and i love my wifey.
so i havent posted pictures of muah for a while so i guess why not?
randommm:
[gasp!]
cakeness
mhm thats right.
green much?
sleepy.
oh-face!
close-up kisses.
buttchin! my grandma tell me to be proud of it, so here it is!
yellow flower = <3.
me and spency went downtown today and took pictures!
alley giggles.
oh yes.
window.
too short.
he gave me a flower!
rock+flower+pose= the rock flower pose!
some weird red thing and spency.
the same weird red thing and shelby.
ha. loser.
oh rebel!
another rebel.
smiling rebels.
coolfaced rebels.
kissy faces in the bus booth thing.
not so lyrically changelled..
From First to Last.
Jamisonparker.
Jamisonparker.
Rugmunch+Cumbucket=...
Mall-of-America-stalker gals.
Warped-Tour-puffy-faced bithces.
"We're-Cool"-Faces-Kinda-Gangster-Look whores.
Waiting-For-The-Starting-Line-Kiss-the-Shades-and-Be-Cute hoes.
yea so its all awesomeness ♥
btw i decided on the lj-cut
then again im sad because this thursday is the last marketfest and i havent seen lorna or patrick since warped tour. and patrick said i was gonna be on the L-FACE show! and i was supposed to see Niko and get a hug! and i was also supposed to pay Bob Sand 5 dollars in Monopoly money and im hoping angie will now cuz i told stacy to give it to angie to give to bob. anyways its just gonna be sad but i know ill be having fun with kami too.
so i was mad at angie yesterday cuz she didnt sleepover but whatev cuz i realized i was just being a bithc about it. im so sick of being a bihtc. im a really big btchi. i need to start being nicer. also i need to work more cuz i realized i havent worked for a while and i need to get paid badly so i can pay my mumsy poo back. damn debts. but my birthday is coming up so i can always use some of that money to pay her annnd she said she might get a sewing machine!!! i want one so bad, itd be great. the two we have dont work.
wow i am the biggest dumbsas ever. our fridge leaks cuz its a piece of crap and we need a new one so anyway, i put a towel down and it was eventually it got all soaked so went downstairs and put it in that tub thing by the washer. before that i had spilled milk on my blanket cuz im a spiller and all clumsy. so i had to wash my blanket and i forgot about the towel. so the tub filled up with the washing water cuz the towel clogged the drain and then the water spilled all over the laundry room! it even went outside of the laundry room, it was just not good.
so my mom got home tonight and i miss her dearly. i have to pack tomorrow, and angie might come over later. its four in the fcuking morning and that is totally one of the used lyrics haha. im not using an LJ cut cuz i dont feel like it. yesterday i had my first piano lesson in like, what, 5 years! it was amazing and you dont even know my love for piano. the whole reason i started taking lessons again is because i really want to be able to play really good and i want to play me and the moon by so/co soooo bad. but when i was there i brought the cd and the sheet music and joyce, my teacher, has this cd player attached to the keyboard and she played along with the song and omg it was seriously one of the most amazing things ever. i just wanted to die there, but not really. the music was all everywhere, just swimming around my head and i couldnt stop smiling. i felt like i wasnt sure of being anywhere and i felt so out of place and i was just floating. im telling you it was amazing. and its crazy that music can do something like that.
so my computer is officially a lame face. its always "low disk space" but when i do a disk clean up it never works. so it takes like 2 hours to burn a single cd. and then i really wanted to burn one of the bright eyes cds i forgot what its called something about keeping ur ear to the ground but i was downloading the songs and my computer started being a tard and shutting down on me and for same lame ass reason my limewire wont work so screw the whole thing.
yep so i dont like him anymore. im over him. i dont know what it is that made me not like him really. its nuts, i mean two years of tearing myself up and crying over something thats so meaningless now. honestly i could careless if i ever saw him again, ever. i dont care if i never get payback, if i dont ever hurt him. and i hope hes really happy right now. its just weird that when you get over it, you feel sort of empty. like it was something that really takes a part of you and really makes you sad or in the beginning makes you really happy. and its really something thats on ur mind a lot and makes you super depressed. and when its all gone and swallowed you dont have those heavy feelings anymore. you dont have a reason to cry at night and no matter how hard you try you just cant choke it up. so ive got this gap now and soon enough it will be refilled but im in the between time right now. i always thought that when it was all done id be super happy and im not finding this happiness right now. im not depressed or anything but its just not as i expected it.
for my current problems, its pretty much friends. im so sick of being alone. i havent really hung out with anyone for almost a week. so ive been sitting in my room eating and getting fat. listening to music. getting the mail at 2. taking a shower at midnight. getting ready for nothing. but i am getting excited for school. i hope i can meet lots of new cool people. my mommy said we could go shopping at goodwill so im excited about that.
me and lorna had a conversation of lyrics today. it was "lover i dont have to love" by bright eyes and it was great. made me happy, and i love my wifey.
so i havent posted pictures of muah for a while so i guess why not?
randommm:
[gasp!]
cakeness
mhm thats right.
green much?
sleepy.
oh-face!
close-up kisses.
buttchin! my grandma tell me to be proud of it, so here it is!
yellow flower = <3.
me and spency went downtown today and took pictures!
alley giggles.
oh yes.
window.
too short.
he gave me a flower!
rock+flower+pose= the rock flower pose!
some weird red thing and spency.
the same weird red thing and shelby.
ha. loser.
oh rebel!
another rebel.
smiling rebels.
coolfaced rebels.
kissy faces in the bus booth thing.
not so lyrically changelled..
From First to Last.
Jamisonparker.
Jamisonparker.
Rugmunch+Cumbucket=...
Mall-of-America-stalker gals.
Warped-Tour-puffy-faced bithces.
"We're-Cool"-Faces-Kinda-Gangster-Look whores.
Waiting-For-The-Starting-Line-Kiss-the-Shades-and-Be-Cute hoes.
yea so its all awesomeness ♥
btw i decided on the lj-cut