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OMG I JUST WANNA LEAVE MY HOUSE!
I just got done friggen yelling back and forth with my dad....i dont think i can talk anymore, my throat hurts...i just wanna die!!!!!!
I cant take it at all anymore here..and i told my dad that too! I was practically screaming what i wanted to say, and i think i hurt him, but i dont care he hurt me...and he threatned to take away my password again, just because i havnt done my math today, and my mom said if I wasnt off by the time she got back from picking Katelyn up, she would change my password, and i told her that wasnt fair because Katelyn hasnt done anything today yet, and she called dakota and everyone, and went online already and watched tv, and got to go places...yeah..i talked to shaine and went to kellys, thats it, but I did SOME skool, and its not fair whenm my mom is like gone and can never help me...and so i told my dad that, and hes like well we are gonna change ur password if u dont get off now, and then that just set me off, and i started yelling and i was liek are you that stupid that you cant think of anything else to take away? and hes like its the only thing that gets ur attention, and im like no its not, because you still let me on the computer.....and it has nothing to do with me knowing my own password, because i'd be on it anyways, and what is his point if he is gonna give me my own computer? what is he gonna do then huh? and then hes like so you call me stupid just because im gonna take your password away, and i was like yeah, and then i started crying, and screaming at the same time, and i was like its not fair, thats all you ever take away, and i was like i want to move, i dont wanna live here anymore, i dont wanna be around you, i just wanna get out of here away from you and live somewhere else with somebody else!!!! I hate being here!! And then i cried even more..and then hes like just because of a stupid computer password? and i was like no thats not the only reason, but i dont wanna say the other reasons, and i dont wanna talk to you anymore, and i just wanna get out of here away from you...and then..i said something kinda bad, and i was like i wish i could push you down the stairs so that you would die and i wouldnt have to live here anymore, and then i could move....and then i was like why cant u just kick me out of the house so that i can be happy? if you kick me out Shaines family will take me in, and I like it alot better there, than I'll ever like it here again, and i hate yelling like this...and like during while i was saying that, he was saying a bunch of junk that i couldnt even hear..because i was so p.od...and yeah..hes like stop screaming, i was like NO....where do you think I get it from? you're doing it....you always do it! So im going to now! and then hes like get off the computer and go to your room now and im like no!!! and he said it again..and i was like no and started yelling some more, but i dont remember what i said...my brain hurts right now, and my throat..and right now...just everything hurts...inside and out!! Its not cool...but it felt good to finally say all that to him, because its mostly true..sure i would miss them and everything, but this is the last of it...i know i say that all the time, and this is prolly just another fake thing, but if i can help it, i dont wanna live here after this summer! i wanna be out of here ASAP!!!! or even just stay with someone or diff ppl during the year....idk....*Sigh* i just hate this, and grrrrrrrrrrrr...im so mad right now...i just wanna friggen die.......................................
I just got done friggen yelling back and forth with my dad....i dont think i can talk anymore, my throat hurts...i just wanna die!!!!!!
I cant take it at all anymore here..and i told my dad that too! I was practically screaming what i wanted to say, and i think i hurt him, but i dont care he hurt me...and he threatned to take away my password again, just because i havnt done my math today, and my mom said if I wasnt off by the time she got back from picking Katelyn up, she would change my password, and i told her that wasnt fair because Katelyn hasnt done anything today yet, and she called dakota and everyone, and went online already and watched tv, and got to go places...yeah..i talked to shaine and went to kellys, thats it, but I did SOME skool, and its not fair whenm my mom is like gone and can never help me...and so i told my dad that, and hes like well we are gonna change ur password if u dont get off now, and then that just set me off, and i started yelling and i was liek are you that stupid that you cant think of anything else to take away? and hes like its the only thing that gets ur attention, and im like no its not, because you still let me on the computer.....and it has nothing to do with me knowing my own password, because i'd be on it anyways, and what is his point if he is gonna give me my own computer? what is he gonna do then huh? and then hes like so you call me stupid just because im gonna take your password away, and i was like yeah, and then i started crying, and screaming at the same time, and i was like its not fair, thats all you ever take away, and i was like i want to move, i dont wanna live here anymore, i dont wanna be around you, i just wanna get out of here away from you and live somewhere else with somebody else!!!! I hate being here!! And then i cried even more..and then hes like just because of a stupid computer password? and i was like no thats not the only reason, but i dont wanna say the other reasons, and i dont wanna talk to you anymore, and i just wanna get out of here away from you...and then..i said something kinda bad, and i was like i wish i could push you down the stairs so that you would die and i wouldnt have to live here anymore, and then i could move....and then i was like why cant u just kick me out of the house so that i can be happy? if you kick me out Shaines family will take me in, and I like it alot better there, than I'll ever like it here again, and i hate yelling like this...and like during while i was saying that, he was saying a bunch of junk that i couldnt even hear..because i was so p.od...and yeah..hes like stop screaming, i was like NO....where do you think I get it from? you're doing it....you always do it! So im going to now! and then hes like get off the computer and go to your room now and im like no!!! and he said it again..and i was like no and started yelling some more, but i dont remember what i said...my brain hurts right now, and my throat..and right now...just everything hurts...inside and out!! Its not cool...but it felt good to finally say all that to him, because its mostly true..sure i would miss them and everything, but this is the last of it...i know i say that all the time, and this is prolly just another fake thing, but if i can help it, i dont wanna live here after this summer! i wanna be out of here ASAP!!!! or even just stay with someone or diff ppl during the year....idk....*Sigh* i just hate this, and grrrrrrrrrrrr...im so mad right now...i just wanna friggen die.......................................