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Ok im really not liking my life that great right now...
The only friend I have is Shaine...and none of my other "friends" want to ever hang out with me, and they say they do, but they arent really trying....
And I can rarely ever hang out with her, because she lives so far away, so i dont even get why we are friends...well yes i do, but idk..i hate this whole thing, i hate having a really close friend live so far away, we can see each other like once a month, and that really sucks, especially when my sisters Best friend lives like 5-10 mins away, and is over like almost every weekend, or she is there, and they talk on the phone every day at least 5 hours...and they see each other like every day at school! Its not fair..and i dont wanna look for another friend around here, because yeah...idk...i feel odd when i hang out with ppl other than Shaine, but i mean..i want other friends that live closer that I can see like every weekend or something...i hate waiting a month, and yeah...its not cool, and we barely ever talk that long on the phone anymore, and when we do its not longer than an hour and a half, and yeah..grrrr...im really hating my life right now, i wish i lived somewhere else and went to public school, i dont care what i would be like if i went to public school, at least i would have more friends. I just dont wanna go to Hall-dale, because alot of people know me there already, and want like nothing to do with me or ignore me, and its not cool. I just want to start over somewhere where nobody knows me....where i can have friends that live near me and hang out with them and talk to them everyday....where i can have a boyfriend, and an awesome church...i have nothing going on for me here! It sucks...really!
As much as i lorve Shaine....i just dont wanna live around here anymore..............is that a bad thing??