CREEP.

[ilove_yourmom]

i wish i could draw you a diagram of my life.
it would consist of my soul, crying
my life being shattered to pieces,
my strength being ravished by a motley crew.

i really don't understand.
every spring my life is crushed to ruins.
spring is supposed to bring about a new life in people.
another beginning.
but not for danielle. no.
i thought that i left this.

i hate being prejudged.
it's as though people are too lazy to put the work in, so they just decide to hate me and call it even.
they decided that i don't need anything.
and maybe i don't.
maybe all i need is myself and it's taken me this long to realize that i should become bitter and sheltered.

i don't understand.
i decided not to go there.
not to go to the other side, and so what happens?
hell came to me.
it came to me almost i my sleep.
and i didn't even do anything.
i never spoke behind someone's back.
i didn't decide to give myself a title.
i didn't want to get a title.
but you'd have to agree that creep isn't so bad.

i've fought my entire life.
in millbury everyone hates my family and i was prejudged to my last straw trying to get people to look past the faults of my relatives and to look at me.
i fought within my family.
i fought for hope.
i fought for a new beginning, and i got it.
i finally won.
and then there's this.
all of a sudden i'm back in the game.
and i don't want to be.
i just want to surrender and let the other team win.
i just want to sit this one out.

i just wanted to sit this one out.