"This Is How It Works, It Feels A Little Worse, Than When We Drove Our Hearse..
Right through that screaming crowd, while laughing up a storm, until we were just bone, until it got so warm, that none of us could sleep, and all the styrofoam began to melt away, we tried to find some worms, to aid in the decay, but none of them were home, inside their catacombs, a million ancient bees, began to sting our knees, while we were on our knees, praying that disease, would leave the ones we love, and never come again.
On the radio we heard Novemeber Rain, that solo's real long, but it's a pretty song, we listened to it twice, cause the DJ was asleep...
This is how it works, you're young until you're not, you love until you don't, you try until you can't, you laugh until you cry, you cry until you laugh, and everyone must breathe, until their dying breath, no this is how it works, you peer inside yourself, you take the things you like, then try to love the things you took, and you take the love you made, and stick in to some, someone else's heart, pumping someone else's blood, and walking arm in arm, you hope it don't get harmed, but even if it does, you'll just do it all again.
On the radio, you'll hear Novemeber Rain, that solo's awful long, but it's a good refrain, you'll listen to it twice, cause the DJ is asleep, on the radio, on the radio."
I currently have three jobs. I work 45-85 hours a week depending on how motivated I am. Two weeks ago I made almost $900 for one week..
I took all the extra money from that week that I didn't need, and the week after, and paid off about $1,000 of my debt that has been hanging over my head for the last 4 years. I also was able to negotiate about $2,000 of off of my record, so with all of that I am down from 8.5k to 5.5k.. I am actually pretty confident I can knock off another $2,000 of that in the next 6 months, along with TWO big moves..
This economy sucks, but I am finding that with enough motivation I am really working through it. I actually am saddened on days off, not in a depressive way, but in a 'I wish I was doing more' type of way. I actually only have 60 hours next week, so I am trying to find a place to Volunteer at for Christmas Eve and Night. I actually am even working at least 8 1/2 hours on Monday which is my birthday, and am trying to pick up another 6 hours at another job. So on the week that has my birthday and christmas, I am looking to work (if I get all the shifts I want) 70 hours, and volunteer another 8...
I have been so productive and motivated this year. I have started making formal plans for my future and at the same time fixing the issues of my past. I have met someone that I won't even talk about at this point because I fear words could not do her justice. I am seeing things fall into place so easily for me in my life, and the things that are not I am really not taking No for an answer and making sure they work. I am developing a form of personal and work ethics that are allowing me to do well at work and use that to propel my future. I have done well these last two years of standing strong in the rubble that I felt has been my life, but I am now seeing it takes more than to just live through something earth shattering in your life, you need more than to just pick yourself back up again, you need to rebuild, heal and get back on track..
I'm doing this, and surprisingly not slowly. I am not trying to rush anything at the moment but I am just on a roll. A Year from now I think I will be enrolled in school, Living in a new City (Portland, OR) Out of Debt.. (yes I hope to have my credit rebuilt to a postive if not pretty good score with in the next year, which with this current economy is oddly very easy.. Creditors are doing anything for money and eliminating debt is like buying things on clearance, the deals are phenomenal..) I've felt for the last 4 years I've been 19. If I was were I am now at 19, I wouldn't think so bad of it, and I feel that is how I've been able to reason myself with it, I just still feel like a kid who has screwed up a little..
Monday I will be 24. Time to Grow Up. I am no longer a kid, and I need to get past that stage of my life.... Who knew that someday the same kid who had blue and red hair up until the night before prom would ever grow up?
-Adam
On the radio we heard Novemeber Rain, that solo's real long, but it's a pretty song, we listened to it twice, cause the DJ was asleep...
This is how it works, you're young until you're not, you love until you don't, you try until you can't, you laugh until you cry, you cry until you laugh, and everyone must breathe, until their dying breath, no this is how it works, you peer inside yourself, you take the things you like, then try to love the things you took, and you take the love you made, and stick in to some, someone else's heart, pumping someone else's blood, and walking arm in arm, you hope it don't get harmed, but even if it does, you'll just do it all again.
On the radio, you'll hear Novemeber Rain, that solo's awful long, but it's a good refrain, you'll listen to it twice, cause the DJ is asleep, on the radio, on the radio."
I currently have three jobs. I work 45-85 hours a week depending on how motivated I am. Two weeks ago I made almost $900 for one week..
I took all the extra money from that week that I didn't need, and the week after, and paid off about $1,000 of my debt that has been hanging over my head for the last 4 years. I also was able to negotiate about $2,000 of off of my record, so with all of that I am down from 8.5k to 5.5k.. I am actually pretty confident I can knock off another $2,000 of that in the next 6 months, along with TWO big moves..
This economy sucks, but I am finding that with enough motivation I am really working through it. I actually am saddened on days off, not in a depressive way, but in a 'I wish I was doing more' type of way. I actually only have 60 hours next week, so I am trying to find a place to Volunteer at for Christmas Eve and Night. I actually am even working at least 8 1/2 hours on Monday which is my birthday, and am trying to pick up another 6 hours at another job. So on the week that has my birthday and christmas, I am looking to work (if I get all the shifts I want) 70 hours, and volunteer another 8...
I have been so productive and motivated this year. I have started making formal plans for my future and at the same time fixing the issues of my past. I have met someone that I won't even talk about at this point because I fear words could not do her justice. I am seeing things fall into place so easily for me in my life, and the things that are not I am really not taking No for an answer and making sure they work. I am developing a form of personal and work ethics that are allowing me to do well at work and use that to propel my future. I have done well these last two years of standing strong in the rubble that I felt has been my life, but I am now seeing it takes more than to just live through something earth shattering in your life, you need more than to just pick yourself back up again, you need to rebuild, heal and get back on track..
I'm doing this, and surprisingly not slowly. I am not trying to rush anything at the moment but I am just on a roll. A Year from now I think I will be enrolled in school, Living in a new City (Portland, OR) Out of Debt.. (yes I hope to have my credit rebuilt to a postive if not pretty good score with in the next year, which with this current economy is oddly very easy.. Creditors are doing anything for money and eliminating debt is like buying things on clearance, the deals are phenomenal..) I've felt for the last 4 years I've been 19. If I was were I am now at 19, I wouldn't think so bad of it, and I feel that is how I've been able to reason myself with it, I just still feel like a kid who has screwed up a little..
Monday I will be 24. Time to Grow Up. I am no longer a kid, and I need to get past that stage of my life.... Who knew that someday the same kid who had blue and red hair up until the night before prom would ever grow up?
-Adam