"When All I Said And Done, Will We Still Feel Pain Inside?
Will the scars go away with night, try to smile for the morning light, it's like the best dream to have, where everything is not so bad, every tear is so alone, like God himself is coming to say, I, I can do anything, if you want me here, I can fix anything, if you'll let me near, where are those secrets now, that you're too scared to tell? I'd whisper them all aloud, so you can hear yourself. Green trees were the first sign, the deepest blue the clearest sky, the silence came with the brightest eyes, and turned water into wine, the children ran to see, the parents stood in disbelief, and those who knew braced for the ride, the earth itself then came alive to say, I, I can do anything, if you want me here, I can fix anything, if you'll let me near, where are those secrets now, that you're too scared to tell? I'd whisper them all aloud, so you can hear yourself.
I'm sorry I have to say it, but you look like your sad
Your smile is gone, I've noticed it bad
The cure is if you let in a little more Love
I promise you this, A Little's Enough
I'm sorry I have to say it, but you look like your sad
Your smile is gone, I've noticed it bad
The cure is if you let in a little more Love
I promise you this, A Little's Enough
I'm sorry I have to say it, but you look like your sad
Your smile is gone, I've noticed it bad
The cure is if you let in a little more Love
I promise you this, A Little's Enough
I'm sorry I have to say it, but you look like your sad
Your smile is gone, I've noticed it bad
The cure is if you let in a little more Love
I promise you this, A Little's Enough...."
Wow, so it's been some time again.. I feel like I use my livejournal as a mistress I go to whenever myspace just isn't giving me what I need... Just everything I need to vent about.. would bring a sort of attention on myspace that I don't need right now.. but I really need to get this all out, I feel like I'm about to explode...
You know how emo people get when you say something like "what's wrong" and they say "everything" and you want to say "no you lying sack of shit, not everything is wrong, there is something good going on in your life right now that you are not acknowledging so stop being a little emo whine bag and go soak it up!"
well right now I feel like the little emo could who would just break down and lose it after a comment like that...
I've been making a big deal over the last year or two about how I'm finally taking control of my life, and trying to move forward.. well life has just called my bluff... I so far up shit's creek that... god I'm so drained i can't even complete an interesting analogy....
I feel like i need to vent, like just let it all out.. but I don't even have the energy for it.. so for now here's the skinny...
I'm living in a place I hate, with roommates I don't talk to, where I have no friends, with no money so I'm going to have to pull rent out of my ass unless something goes right and i get my tax return sooner than later or i get a paycheck... BUT I have no job, my cell phone looks like it might get shut off next week, I now owe friends money, I have eaten nothing but Ramen noodles and oatmeal for 10 days straight and washed it down with water because I had to spend the last $4 i have on food for my cat. My only two escapes are the internet... which my roommates canceled and should already have been turned off by now, but for some reason is still working, and talking to someone no one here has heard of.. Keren. She's been the one bright light in these bleak few months, but right now we are in a colossal stand-still... I feel like everything about me right now is broken, and I feel so horribly alone, I've pushed away anyone I've ever cared about, and I seem to keep running from those who care about me... I'm going to go to sleep now, I hope I can sleep through the next few weeks... I'm sorry I was hoping for this to be longer, I just don't have the emotional energy to keep this going...
See you in another year Livejournal..
I'm sorry I have to say it, but you look like your sad
Your smile is gone, I've noticed it bad
The cure is if you let in a little more Love
I promise you this, A Little's Enough
I'm sorry I have to say it, but you look like your sad
Your smile is gone, I've noticed it bad
The cure is if you let in a little more Love
I promise you this, A Little's Enough
I'm sorry I have to say it, but you look like your sad
Your smile is gone, I've noticed it bad
The cure is if you let in a little more Love
I promise you this, A Little's Enough
I'm sorry I have to say it, but you look like your sad
Your smile is gone, I've noticed it bad
The cure is if you let in a little more Love
I promise you this, A Little's Enough...."
Wow, so it's been some time again.. I feel like I use my livejournal as a mistress I go to whenever myspace just isn't giving me what I need... Just everything I need to vent about.. would bring a sort of attention on myspace that I don't need right now.. but I really need to get this all out, I feel like I'm about to explode...
You know how emo people get when you say something like "what's wrong" and they say "everything" and you want to say "no you lying sack of shit, not everything is wrong, there is something good going on in your life right now that you are not acknowledging so stop being a little emo whine bag and go soak it up!"
well right now I feel like the little emo could who would just break down and lose it after a comment like that...
I've been making a big deal over the last year or two about how I'm finally taking control of my life, and trying to move forward.. well life has just called my bluff... I so far up shit's creek that... god I'm so drained i can't even complete an interesting analogy....
I feel like i need to vent, like just let it all out.. but I don't even have the energy for it.. so for now here's the skinny...
I'm living in a place I hate, with roommates I don't talk to, where I have no friends, with no money so I'm going to have to pull rent out of my ass unless something goes right and i get my tax return sooner than later or i get a paycheck... BUT I have no job, my cell phone looks like it might get shut off next week, I now owe friends money, I have eaten nothing but Ramen noodles and oatmeal for 10 days straight and washed it down with water because I had to spend the last $4 i have on food for my cat. My only two escapes are the internet... which my roommates canceled and should already have been turned off by now, but for some reason is still working, and talking to someone no one here has heard of.. Keren. She's been the one bright light in these bleak few months, but right now we are in a colossal stand-still... I feel like everything about me right now is broken, and I feel so horribly alone, I've pushed away anyone I've ever cared about, and I seem to keep running from those who care about me... I'm going to go to sleep now, I hope I can sleep through the next few weeks... I'm sorry I was hoping for this to be longer, I just don't have the emotional energy to keep this going...
See you in another year Livejournal..