"Whre have you been, I've been waiting so long, to hear from you...
and all the things, that we said we would do, were meant to be plans of the past, oh we've been, oh we've been, too quiet for too long, where is, where is, the hope we once had, it's too late to be saved by your charm, we can never get this right, your words are cold, and the season is too, the comfort in your voice is gone, don't keep in touch, I'm better off all alone, we've lost everything that I loved, so is it worth, this time, am I done, in your mind, will I regret, once your gone, why did I ever think that, we would, we would be good, we've been, oh we've been, too quiet for too long, where is, where is, the hope we once had, it's too late to be saved by your charm, we can never get this right, well alright, I'm sorry I, even tried, I was a fool, to have hope, in you... in you..."
Mmmm more I listen to Daphne Loves Derby, the more I like...
Helped Jaker and Kyle and Jair move yesterday, it was fun...
Nothing really new for me.. I'm gonna be 20 in the 9 days, not cool, I mean, YAY birthday time and all, but 20 is a horrid Age. in 9 days I will fail my first life goal, never to turn 20... Oh well I'll be so drunk that night, I wont even remember.
I talked to Jess the other day... She is still upset about the things I called her... Can you really blame her? no prob not. But at the same time... Can you really blame me? no, Thats why I havent apologized for any of it. The things I said to her were sincere, and I was sick of holding everything back with the fear of ruining any future with her, so when I finally realized that the only future with her was her only talking to me when I would say something first, or how our conversations would run dry the second I wouldnt say anything, arg, thinking of it all upsets me still. I'm over her, but I'm not over what happened, not in the least, and I don't think I ever will really... When people break up with someone, they cut corners and lie about little things, They do it in hope that they do not hurt the person they just dumped, so I suppose its in good intention, but it's not good, not good at all. For notice to anyone who might ever date and hurt me in the future... dont lie to me, dont avoid me, if you say you want to be friends... be my friend, dont agree on being friends and just pretend to be there, thats when people get hurt, thats when people get upset, and thats when people go and call you things... Us dumped/hurt/rejects AREN'T crazy! We feel like we just got hit by a train, and your little lies and all the little corners you cut, just make things confusing, when you give false hope... then you are the hopeless... when are people going to realize the honesty can avoid so many problems...
Sorry for the Rant.. just bothered...
Adam
Mmmm more I listen to Daphne Loves Derby, the more I like...
Helped Jaker and Kyle and Jair move yesterday, it was fun...
Nothing really new for me.. I'm gonna be 20 in the 9 days, not cool, I mean, YAY birthday time and all, but 20 is a horrid Age. in 9 days I will fail my first life goal, never to turn 20... Oh well I'll be so drunk that night, I wont even remember.
I talked to Jess the other day... She is still upset about the things I called her... Can you really blame her? no prob not. But at the same time... Can you really blame me? no, Thats why I havent apologized for any of it. The things I said to her were sincere, and I was sick of holding everything back with the fear of ruining any future with her, so when I finally realized that the only future with her was her only talking to me when I would say something first, or how our conversations would run dry the second I wouldnt say anything, arg, thinking of it all upsets me still. I'm over her, but I'm not over what happened, not in the least, and I don't think I ever will really... When people break up with someone, they cut corners and lie about little things, They do it in hope that they do not hurt the person they just dumped, so I suppose its in good intention, but it's not good, not good at all. For notice to anyone who might ever date and hurt me in the future... dont lie to me, dont avoid me, if you say you want to be friends... be my friend, dont agree on being friends and just pretend to be there, thats when people get hurt, thats when people get upset, and thats when people go and call you things... Us dumped/hurt/rejects AREN'T crazy! We feel like we just got hit by a train, and your little lies and all the little corners you cut, just make things confusing, when you give false hope... then you are the hopeless... when are people going to realize the honesty can avoid so many problems...
Sorry for the Rant.. just bothered...
Adam