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Here's an update. Since I promised Holly i'd update everyday. Even though i break promises. And I lie. And I cheat. I fucked up guys. I fucked up pretty bad. Holly was awesome. She's funny, logical, cute, fun. Everything I want. And i threw it all away. For something stupid. Something so stupid I don't deserve to be BREATHING right now. I hope now people see why i hate myself. I ALWAYS screw up. Usually i can deal with it. But this, i don't know. I had something beautiful. SOmething i loved. Something PERFECT. And i just balled it up and threw it out the window. She broke up with me. Because i did something i wish i hadn't. I wish i never met Miss Ashley Alana Taylor. The same thing that i couldn't keep away from i now want to have never known. I tried for a while, to forget about her. I blocked her on line. Didn't answer when she called. Didn't pick up or anything. And now. Now look. Look at what i've done. Look at this monster i created. Yeah FUCK staying optimistic now. It's all down hill from here. Everything. Work, school, play, LIFE. I meant she was everything. Now i get to put my money where my mouth is. Ha Ha. It's been a fun game guys.