I Could Be So Much More Then This...
So, I did get to workout last night btw, ran almost 3 miles (like 2.6 or something), so that was good, ill try to run 3 wendsday.
I realized today that i'm driving myself insane with anxiety about EVERYTHING. I can't stop worrying about the way I look, or the way other people think of me, or how i'm going to spend this semester. Trivial things I guess. But then again, i've always been this way. It will pass I hope. I think getting all dolled up and hitting up a party or bar SOBER and maybe having CUTE guys hit on me would help. haha, how shallow.
So besides my insanity, today was my first day of figure drawing. I slept through health on accident. I had a lunch date supposidly, but the guy I was going to go with after we had art philosophy together was all, "oh I ate before." wtf. oh well, im through with him, hes way to complicated for me. Maybe its the whole art major thing. I need to never try and get with another communication arts major, haha. Other then that and the fact that my face is like permanently red from all the wind, today went okay.
Last night I after I finally started to fall asleep one of my favorite guys in the world left me a text to got on aim. I talked to him about his problems. Glad to know someone would want to talk with me about that. He knows i care enough about him to wake up for whatever he needs to talk about. :)
Well thats about it. someones car alarm is going off and i live over the parking lot, so that sucks. ah well, hopefully someone can do something tonight, i really want to watch a movie with someone...
I realized today that i'm driving myself insane with anxiety about EVERYTHING. I can't stop worrying about the way I look, or the way other people think of me, or how i'm going to spend this semester. Trivial things I guess. But then again, i've always been this way. It will pass I hope. I think getting all dolled up and hitting up a party or bar SOBER and maybe having CUTE guys hit on me would help. haha, how shallow.
So besides my insanity, today was my first day of figure drawing. I slept through health on accident. I had a lunch date supposidly, but the guy I was going to go with after we had art philosophy together was all, "oh I ate before." wtf. oh well, im through with him, hes way to complicated for me. Maybe its the whole art major thing. I need to never try and get with another communication arts major, haha. Other then that and the fact that my face is like permanently red from all the wind, today went okay.
Last night I after I finally started to fall asleep one of my favorite guys in the world left me a text to got on aim. I talked to him about his problems. Glad to know someone would want to talk with me about that. He knows i care enough about him to wake up for whatever he needs to talk about. :)
Well thats about it. someones car alarm is going off and i live over the parking lot, so that sucks. ah well, hopefully someone can do something tonight, i really want to watch a movie with someone...