Obligatory Update
I felt the need to just say something given that I havn't said a damn thing in a while.
There is so much going on, but I think most of it is in my head. Well, maybe not the big things, they're real, but for every big or moderately not-small thing going on, there's a dozen little things in my head. This is resulting in my head being very full and leaking all over the place.
I'm having surgery next week. It's relatively minor out-patient stuff, but still causing anxiety and certainly not a fun thing to do. I don't anticipate a need for long recovery, but I decided to take a "vacation" next week anyway.
I'm trying to make changes... small ones at first, to attempt to simplify bits of my life here and there. However, making the decisions about which small changes to undertake is being a little problematic. I really suck at making decisions. Once I've amde them, I generally don't have a problem sticking to them and feeling good about them, but the decision-making process seems to get more complicated than it needs to be. It's like I have to make a conscious decision to even decide something in the first place. It's not an efficient process for me.
I've been taking a bit of a break from WoW to try to clean up some old projects to aid in the simplification endeavor. I got a good start on that this weekend, and if I can keep it going, I bet I can finally organize at least my craft room and make it useable again. Since I have no extra money to put towards new crafts (which is terribly frustrating when the crativity bug bites, which it tends to do a lot in the spring), it's unlikely that I'll add much to the clutter, but I really need to organize things by project and find a good way to store some of them away, or sell some stuff. I know I've said all this before, and I guess this is a way of affirming to myself that these things really need to get done. Now I just need to actually do it--motivation or not.
There is so much going on, but I think most of it is in my head. Well, maybe not the big things, they're real, but for every big or moderately not-small thing going on, there's a dozen little things in my head. This is resulting in my head being very full and leaking all over the place.
I'm having surgery next week. It's relatively minor out-patient stuff, but still causing anxiety and certainly not a fun thing to do. I don't anticipate a need for long recovery, but I decided to take a "vacation" next week anyway.
I'm trying to make changes... small ones at first, to attempt to simplify bits of my life here and there. However, making the decisions about which small changes to undertake is being a little problematic. I really suck at making decisions. Once I've amde them, I generally don't have a problem sticking to them and feeling good about them, but the decision-making process seems to get more complicated than it needs to be. It's like I have to make a conscious decision to even decide something in the first place. It's not an efficient process for me.
I've been taking a bit of a break from WoW to try to clean up some old projects to aid in the simplification endeavor. I got a good start on that this weekend, and if I can keep it going, I bet I can finally organize at least my craft room and make it useable again. Since I have no extra money to put towards new crafts (which is terribly frustrating when the crativity bug bites, which it tends to do a lot in the spring), it's unlikely that I'll add much to the clutter, but I really need to organize things by project and find a good way to store some of them away, or sell some stuff. I know I've said all this before, and I guess this is a way of affirming to myself that these things really need to get done. Now I just need to actually do it--motivation or not.