a song/peom, first draft

[illusive_beauty]

You think I'd get use to this

Every time I fall, it hurts less.

You have eyes I can't escape.

I am trapped in your window,

and your glass wont break.

So, I am up with your lights,

and penetrating stare.

This is the house insecurity built.

It make me wont to stay

but the scales tilts

When you break down

I catch you on all your shit.

And I have always liked being free,

That's what I meant...

I am your perfect white fence.

I gave my god away to a man I barely knew.

If I gave my god away would you?

There is a worn out drive way,

And it is calling me back home....

But there is no place for god here,

And I am caught in the storm.

Lord I am not worthy to drink from the pond you sweat in.

Too tender are my lungs to heave and breath you in.

Lost in a blue house,

found in a storm,

wont you take me home?

I am caught in the middle of a dead mans pulse.

I gave my god away to a man without a soul.

I thought i could help you find a home.

Controlling. Rapture, Take me when we are alone.

I gave my god away to a man with no soul.

Now he can show me things I could never see,

Oh, what a joke he has made of me.