Beh
Today was blah except for my few hours with I and A. I'm sad. Or depressed. Or something similar. I can't really name this feeling. I wanna cry, my chest is tingling and there's a weird feeling in my throat. I can say, however, I do not equate it with happiness. I'm not whining, I just don't know how to make it better as it feels now. And even if I was whining, it's my goddamn journal, I can whine if I want to. Bah.
Dad may get out of the hospital tomorrow so if he does that's good. Daisy's gone back to a shithole with a bitch who doesn't love her and physically pushes her away when she comes to her to get some love. That breaks my heart. We loved her before but we all just fell in love with her while she was here cuz she kept us happy. Now no more of that. Poor Daisy. She's such an awesome baby, now she's back there, she's gonna need doggie Xanax. :( :( Jebus, I've never been this upset over a dog before. But fuck that, I've never had one LIVE with me. She's so much fun and a great way of escaping the endless list of shit that SUCKS. I totally believe that owning a dog can add years to your life. I've never laughed that much in three days, EVER. She's so funny. My MOM even cried when she left. You don't know the extent of that unless you know my mom. Anyway. I doubt ya'll care about the dog. Anyway.
So the doctors told my dad today that his appendix HAD ruptured. They said before it hadn't. They also told him he was lucky to be alive. Lucky for THEM! They woulda had such a suit on their hands ohmyfuckinggod. They did so much wrong. I'm not gonna go into detail. I have lost any and all faith in the medical profession. To think I wanted to study to become a part of it.
how did this world get so fucked up.
Dad may get out of the hospital tomorrow so if he does that's good. Daisy's gone back to a shithole with a bitch who doesn't love her and physically pushes her away when she comes to her to get some love. That breaks my heart. We loved her before but we all just fell in love with her while she was here cuz she kept us happy. Now no more of that. Poor Daisy. She's such an awesome baby, now she's back there, she's gonna need doggie Xanax. :( :( Jebus, I've never been this upset over a dog before. But fuck that, I've never had one LIVE with me. She's so much fun and a great way of escaping the endless list of shit that SUCKS. I totally believe that owning a dog can add years to your life. I've never laughed that much in three days, EVER. She's so funny. My MOM even cried when she left. You don't know the extent of that unless you know my mom. Anyway. I doubt ya'll care about the dog. Anyway.
So the doctors told my dad today that his appendix HAD ruptured. They said before it hadn't. They also told him he was lucky to be alive. Lucky for THEM! They woulda had such a suit on their hands ohmyfuckinggod. They did so much wrong. I'm not gonna go into detail. I have lost any and all faith in the medical profession. To think I wanted to study to become a part of it.
how did this world get so fucked up.