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Dealing with problems is so much harder when I'm the one that caused them.
Poor Mark. Seriously, I'm worried about him. His pysche has been attacked over and over the past couple of months. I'm not surprised that he jumped to the worst possible conclusion. It would make sense with everything he's dealing with. I just feel so absolutely dreadful about it. Admittedly I'm not perfect here and I make mistakes, I just hate that it causes him pain, especially when it's causing him worse pain than is really necessary.
I always feel like, as long as he and I are okay, I can handle everything else. So when he and I are not okay, where does that leave everything? Actually, after reflecting on that last statement for a couple minutes here, I know where it leaves everything. Everything can kiss my ass. Everything is insignificant. Compared to how much I care about this relationship, I don't care about everything else at all.
I just want my husband to be okay, to know that he's loved. The world just hasnt been a very safe place for him. I thought I was giving him that secure world he needs, but I didnt make it safe enough. Damn it.
Poor Mark. Seriously, I'm worried about him. His pysche has been attacked over and over the past couple of months. I'm not surprised that he jumped to the worst possible conclusion. It would make sense with everything he's dealing with. I just feel so absolutely dreadful about it. Admittedly I'm not perfect here and I make mistakes, I just hate that it causes him pain, especially when it's causing him worse pain than is really necessary.
I always feel like, as long as he and I are okay, I can handle everything else. So when he and I are not okay, where does that leave everything? Actually, after reflecting on that last statement for a couple minutes here, I know where it leaves everything. Everything can kiss my ass. Everything is insignificant. Compared to how much I care about this relationship, I don't care about everything else at all.
I just want my husband to be okay, to know that he's loved. The world just hasnt been a very safe place for him. I thought I was giving him that secure world he needs, but I didnt make it safe enough. Damn it.