Jul 16, 2005 22:10
my family is like, wow i cant explain, almost all the boy except me have been killed in some kind of something. I just cant take it at all, I had to watch my great aunt die at 94, I NEVER want to live to be that age. Expecially in her shoes, he husband, my granfathers bother, was a crip. So he didn't have to fight in the war, but he was a teacher. People think that the Germans were so bad you couldn't imagine what the British did to they. They bombed the school that he was working at killing him, then they bombed a whole city so much that the people that were in bunkers sufficated from the all the fire taking all the oxygen. A whole city, all of them were killed. That city had no industry things to it had nothing. Whatever its the past and the Germans did worse things in exacuting people without reason, but i felt so bad for her. She was lying in bed struggling to breath. She couldn't even talk, it made me so weak. The picture is going over and over again in my head, i cant take it. I would rather be thinking about something better like amy, some how it puts me into a good mood sometimes just to think of her. But it seems I make her sad when she thinks of me, which kinda makes me sad. I hate being away from her so long. I cant take it but its almost over, thursday 9 o'clock flight to Frankfurt then fly to New york 8 hour ride. then get back ´to the U.S. at 11 o'clock and then I can be back in my bed sleeping. The hopefully i get to see you before I leave for LBI, but you never know whats going to happen with us. I cant wait to be home with you. i miss you more then anything.