day 11
Today's an exhausting day. Both physically and emotionally. Was in a bumpy truck three hours, and I didn't sleep well. Dreams keep haunting me vividly. Upside I weigh 272.5 and I'm spilling large amounts of ketones. Yay. I got in this mood I've been getting into since surgery. I just want to stay stationary though I know I have so much to do. I feel sad and I don't know why. I think it's good I have shrink appt wed morning. To top it off I saw a Facebook pic that made me laugh and think of Travis emailed it to him and he responded tonight it's horrible how just correspondence can be painful yet comforting in the same instance. Just a reminder, Brian often asks why I still wear Travis ring... It's a reminder.. It was a promise from he to I. Now, it's a promise to my self. That I know better. And I'm better for it, jaded, but better for it. I have freedom, yet.. I feel trapped I have love yet I am lonely... I've just got to get through this I know my bodies tired, hurting, my minds tired... Tomorrow is another day.
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