Who? where why when NOW
There is a old saying,
"how can i fly like a eagle when i live among turkeys".
I have always found this saying to be funny, last night i realized it applies to me.
I have choosen to be a star in hell over even attempting to be a actor at all in heaven.
I have spent the last 13 years of my life making my self important by putting my self in social and economic positions where my mere existence is enough to garner a win.
This is not to speak down to any one, this is not meant to belittle a single person i know. I love my friends.
but the sad truth is i dont push my self farther then i think the safety net will cacth me.
There was a time when i stared down any chalange and met them beat them moved up and on.
Now i swim around in shallow waters a big fish in a small pond.
Where did this come from... let me explain.
I love rapping, i get a thrill like sex and djing when i am freestyling.
Last night i was talk to steph and i said " I would love to open for techanina" She replied" any thing is possible". And the first thought that went through my head was but i would need to go out and earn the respect of hip hop heads to get the fame to be a vialble option to open for tech, and with that thought my heart sunk because i was scared to do the work because i know that it would be hard.
This morning i thought about that... it bother me alot. No sooner had i stated a gaol i had then i also stated a reason for not doing it.
Right after speaking with my love stpeh i wnet to a small house party and wacthed as people sat drinking beer trying to impress each other with wild stories stale jokes and bad pcik up lines.
And i joined in, I comaned the attention of everyone in the room told the wildest stires the stalest jokes and hit on no buddy " because this is the best to get people attention".
On the way out door my buddy tif asked me ... "you like comanding the room, and i replied sure when it is easy". She lauhed and took it as a insult to those who where in the room we just left.
But it was not, it was a insult to me. I did what was easy to me.
Im to comfortable.
To unchallenged
stagnant
lacking growth.
harboring fear
hate
and bad emotions from past issue's.
I think It is time I stepped up and did something.
Here are soemthing i have not done that i allways wnated to do
I will do them all by dec of next year.
Release a full hip hop album and perform lives show to promote it.
Read my poetry out-loud at a reading.
Open mic night at comedy club
Publish my poetry with in house or out i will bind those words and hand them to another person i have never met before.
Act, yes you heard me .. i used to be a dam fine actor.
So that is the list.
IF you think you can help me out let me know.
If not life is life,
I cant be scared any longer.
Robert king
"how can i fly like a eagle when i live among turkeys".
I have always found this saying to be funny, last night i realized it applies to me.
I have choosen to be a star in hell over even attempting to be a actor at all in heaven.
I have spent the last 13 years of my life making my self important by putting my self in social and economic positions where my mere existence is enough to garner a win.
This is not to speak down to any one, this is not meant to belittle a single person i know. I love my friends.
but the sad truth is i dont push my self farther then i think the safety net will cacth me.
There was a time when i stared down any chalange and met them beat them moved up and on.
Now i swim around in shallow waters a big fish in a small pond.
Where did this come from... let me explain.
I love rapping, i get a thrill like sex and djing when i am freestyling.
Last night i was talk to steph and i said " I would love to open for techanina" She replied" any thing is possible". And the first thought that went through my head was but i would need to go out and earn the respect of hip hop heads to get the fame to be a vialble option to open for tech, and with that thought my heart sunk because i was scared to do the work because i know that it would be hard.
This morning i thought about that... it bother me alot. No sooner had i stated a gaol i had then i also stated a reason for not doing it.
Right after speaking with my love stpeh i wnet to a small house party and wacthed as people sat drinking beer trying to impress each other with wild stories stale jokes and bad pcik up lines.
And i joined in, I comaned the attention of everyone in the room told the wildest stires the stalest jokes and hit on no buddy " because this is the best to get people attention".
On the way out door my buddy tif asked me ... "you like comanding the room, and i replied sure when it is easy". She lauhed and took it as a insult to those who where in the room we just left.
But it was not, it was a insult to me. I did what was easy to me.
Im to comfortable.
To unchallenged
stagnant
lacking growth.
harboring fear
hate
and bad emotions from past issue's.
I think It is time I stepped up and did something.
Here are soemthing i have not done that i allways wnated to do
I will do them all by dec of next year.
Release a full hip hop album and perform lives show to promote it.
Read my poetry out-loud at a reading.
Open mic night at comedy club
Publish my poetry with in house or out i will bind those words and hand them to another person i have never met before.
Act, yes you heard me .. i used to be a dam fine actor.
So that is the list.
IF you think you can help me out let me know.
If not life is life,
I cant be scared any longer.
Robert king