If you don't pay the piper, he'll feed your children to the rats
There will be people that will complain of an impropper goodbye. There will be those who are content with what I have to say to them. Then there are those whom I chose to ignore completely. I wonder if anyone ever wondered why I stopped going to Water Canyon on Sunday nights. It isn't just because I wanted to spend time alone with Jennifer. It isn't because I got tired of doing the same old thing every weekend. The answer will hurt some feelings, but I find myself facing the question that you'd find on the latest Libertines album. . ."Is it cruel or kind not to speak my mind and to lie to you? Rather than hurt you?" Well I'll confess all of my sins, but unlike the song suggests, it had nothing to do with the consumption of gin.
I appreciate a lot of people, not to name any names, but there are some people I genuinely miss. Most of those people are many that I don't get a good oppurtunity to talk to at all. Then there are those who every time I see them I hurt on the inside just looking at them because of the way they treat me. Well, I've never really had a way to put it into words until now. But I am very angry at all those who are not my friends and pretend to be. I'm talking about all of those people who have never taken the time to get to know me on a personal level. Those people who think I can't speak more than 2 languages, those people who have no idea about my past, those people who on a daily basis could care less about my condition in life, yet pretend to be my friend whenever I am around.
Now, it is something that makes me VERY upset. Though, I know I must forgive because for all of those people who do it. They seem to carry it out without any regret at all, which means that it is almost secondary to their nature. After all I am leaving in a very short period of time. I will most likely not see many of those people ever again. They will go on to hurt other people's feelings. I forgive all of you though, there are those of you whom I mean that read what I am writing. But, I didn't just want to write something sour down and leave you all to feel guilty. I want to leave you all with a piece of advice. Chose your friends very carefully and don't ever fool somebody into think that you've befriended them, it is one of the most heartbreaking feelings anyone could ever go through. Now that aside, like I said, I will be leaving very soon, and I do not wish to go away with anger on my mind. For those who do not atone for any pain or suffering they've caused, they shall surely be etched forever in my memory as somebody who has caused me both pain and suffering. For whether you realize it or not, the person who may seem to have both the will and character of steel is still so very delicate when they are hurt by those who they thought were their friends.
I appreciate a lot of people, not to name any names, but there are some people I genuinely miss. Most of those people are many that I don't get a good oppurtunity to talk to at all. Then there are those who every time I see them I hurt on the inside just looking at them because of the way they treat me. Well, I've never really had a way to put it into words until now. But I am very angry at all those who are not my friends and pretend to be. I'm talking about all of those people who have never taken the time to get to know me on a personal level. Those people who think I can't speak more than 2 languages, those people who have no idea about my past, those people who on a daily basis could care less about my condition in life, yet pretend to be my friend whenever I am around.
Now, it is something that makes me VERY upset. Though, I know I must forgive because for all of those people who do it. They seem to carry it out without any regret at all, which means that it is almost secondary to their nature. After all I am leaving in a very short period of time. I will most likely not see many of those people ever again. They will go on to hurt other people's feelings. I forgive all of you though, there are those of you whom I mean that read what I am writing. But, I didn't just want to write something sour down and leave you all to feel guilty. I want to leave you all with a piece of advice. Chose your friends very carefully and don't ever fool somebody into think that you've befriended them, it is one of the most heartbreaking feelings anyone could ever go through. Now that aside, like I said, I will be leaving very soon, and I do not wish to go away with anger on my mind. For those who do not atone for any pain or suffering they've caused, they shall surely be etched forever in my memory as somebody who has caused me both pain and suffering. For whether you realize it or not, the person who may seem to have both the will and character of steel is still so very delicate when they are hurt by those who they thought were their friends.