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[illneverbleed4u]

i have feelings for the boy that i need to hate. and i want to love the boy that cares but i can't. i'm just going to sleep it all away and live in my dreams because they are better than any present day. i think tonight i'm going to try the unthinkable that i haven't done in over 6 months.

p.s.
sometimes i wish you would hate me ryan.