Yeay for Friday:)
Gotta love this nice short week:) And I gotta love easy outfits for Friday. I'm wearing a black skirt and a black peasant top with blue, white and brown flowers. I have a necklace that has blue roses on it, so it matches perfectlly. It's one of my favorite outfits, partly because it doesn't need ironing and it's super comfortable, and everything just slips on.
Timmy woke up with me this morning, and left for up north shortly before I went to work. I've been talking all this shit about how I'm gonna find me a boy toy for the weekend, but yesterday I realized it just isn't worth it. I can't take the guilt and stress without having those little majic pills that take it all away. And even though he makes me crazy, I love Timmy and I don't want to do anything to hurt him. So I'm just going to have fun, go with the flow, and maybe dance with a hottie or two - but that's all! I'm the type of person who always needs excitement in her life. I get bored easily, and I feel depressed when life gets monotonous. I have problems deciding the course of mine and Timm's relationship because the only thing holding me back is making that committment to be with one person forever. No first date butterflies or first kiss giddiness. I miss that stuff. I want to date and learn new things about different kinds of people. I feel like I have so much more living to do before I settle down. But what's it worth? I trust Timm with my life, and I'm paranoid as hell, so I find it hard to trust anyone. I know Timm would be a good husband and father, and I wouldn't have to worry about getting screwed over or even killed like tons of other women. Husbands kill their wives and pull shady shit all the time, how do you know your man wont turn out to be a psycho? But I don't want to stay with Timm because he's safe, either. Ah, the confusion!
Timmy woke up with me this morning, and left for up north shortly before I went to work. I've been talking all this shit about how I'm gonna find me a boy toy for the weekend, but yesterday I realized it just isn't worth it. I can't take the guilt and stress without having those little majic pills that take it all away. And even though he makes me crazy, I love Timmy and I don't want to do anything to hurt him. So I'm just going to have fun, go with the flow, and maybe dance with a hottie or two - but that's all! I'm the type of person who always needs excitement in her life. I get bored easily, and I feel depressed when life gets monotonous. I have problems deciding the course of mine and Timm's relationship because the only thing holding me back is making that committment to be with one person forever. No first date butterflies or first kiss giddiness. I miss that stuff. I want to date and learn new things about different kinds of people. I feel like I have so much more living to do before I settle down. But what's it worth? I trust Timm with my life, and I'm paranoid as hell, so I find it hard to trust anyone. I know Timm would be a good husband and father, and I wouldn't have to worry about getting screwed over or even killed like tons of other women. Husbands kill their wives and pull shady shit all the time, how do you know your man wont turn out to be a psycho? But I don't want to stay with Timm because he's safe, either. Ah, the confusion!