Happy New Year
Hello eveyrone.
Hope you all had a great Christmas and will have a happy new years eve celebration.
My Christmas sucked. I got some shitty news and it hurts, but whatever. I reacted in the most retarded way possible, blah blah blah. But it's really shitty to just be pushed aside like you're nothing when you've been there for someone and put, what I felt was, so much into it. I don't get it and I will ask a million times and I don't I'll ever hear what I want.
This really sucks.
I'm really scared.
The numbers in my liver keep going up and haven't stopped and the meds they have been giving me haven't been helping. They're going to be keeping a close eye on my stats for the next two days to see how go up and if they continue with the way theyre going I'm going to most likely end up getting liver transplant. I'm scared. I wish I had someone here to hold my hand and tell me I'm going to be okay. I regret all this so bad and wish I could go back, but I can't. So I'll just have to deal with it. When my mom was here she was trying to comfort me by rubbing my forehead, but it was just uncomfortable. I wish I felt differently towards her. My sister helps, but I just sit there and talk to her. I know what it is that I want and jdiihfgjkhg blah. I can't stand people. Why can't people just. ugh.
My friends, Crystal and Cassie, came in and saw me today. It was nice. They will be coming back later on and I think Crystals mom will be coming, too. They're going to bring me some honeydew melon and cantoloupe :o) mmMmmm.
I feel so gross. I haven't had a shower since 8 am on Tuesday morning. My face is so gross. I want to rip it off. Ew.
I'm having really bad chest pains. Ow.
I have to drag this stupid IV machine thingy with me. It's really annoying, especially since I am always having to pee because of it.
I'm going to stop my complaining, I could go on and on. I have a lot of things to sort out.
I'm going to have a great new years in the hospital. Send some positive thoughts my way. Thanks.
Love you guys.
-Abby
Happy 2006.
Hope you all had a great Christmas and will have a happy new years eve celebration.
My Christmas sucked. I got some shitty news and it hurts, but whatever. I reacted in the most retarded way possible, blah blah blah. But it's really shitty to just be pushed aside like you're nothing when you've been there for someone and put, what I felt was, so much into it. I don't get it and I will ask a million times and I don't I'll ever hear what I want.
This really sucks.
I'm really scared.
The numbers in my liver keep going up and haven't stopped and the meds they have been giving me haven't been helping. They're going to be keeping a close eye on my stats for the next two days to see how go up and if they continue with the way theyre going I'm going to most likely end up getting liver transplant. I'm scared. I wish I had someone here to hold my hand and tell me I'm going to be okay. I regret all this so bad and wish I could go back, but I can't. So I'll just have to deal with it. When my mom was here she was trying to comfort me by rubbing my forehead, but it was just uncomfortable. I wish I felt differently towards her. My sister helps, but I just sit there and talk to her. I know what it is that I want and jdiihfgjkhg blah. I can't stand people. Why can't people just. ugh.
My friends, Crystal and Cassie, came in and saw me today. It was nice. They will be coming back later on and I think Crystals mom will be coming, too. They're going to bring me some honeydew melon and cantoloupe :o) mmMmmm.
I feel so gross. I haven't had a shower since 8 am on Tuesday morning. My face is so gross. I want to rip it off. Ew.
I'm having really bad chest pains. Ow.
I have to drag this stupid IV machine thingy with me. It's really annoying, especially since I am always having to pee because of it.
I'm going to stop my complaining, I could go on and on. I have a lot of things to sort out.
I'm going to have a great new years in the hospital. Send some positive thoughts my way. Thanks.
Love you guys.
-Abby
Happy 2006.