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I am so tired... And it's only 22:15. I've been home all day, grandma was around. Got some time to talk with him.
Ilnami went to the hospital last night as we speaked. I couldn't sleep for around an hour, then a crane fly entered my room, it was almost the size of my hand. There was another one in my bathroom. I was about to break down and cry in frustration and impotence, because I am deadly afraid of them and I can't sleep with them around, and Ilnami was in the hospital and there was nothing I could do.
When I woke up, I dressed in my kimono, and walked out. It was raining heavily and I was just standing in the rain with closed eyes and my hands upwards. A kind of silent prayer to anything that could help him. That could do something, make a difference.
I ended up with a bad cold, a bit of fever and a head ache. But it was worth it. He's just returned back. I don't know if it was any help at all... Seems like he won't admit what was wrong.
Ilnami went to the hospital last night as we speaked. I couldn't sleep for around an hour, then a crane fly entered my room, it was almost the size of my hand. There was another one in my bathroom. I was about to break down and cry in frustration and impotence, because I am deadly afraid of them and I can't sleep with them around, and Ilnami was in the hospital and there was nothing I could do.
When I woke up, I dressed in my kimono, and walked out. It was raining heavily and I was just standing in the rain with closed eyes and my hands upwards. A kind of silent prayer to anything that could help him. That could do something, make a difference.
I ended up with a bad cold, a bit of fever and a head ache. But it was worth it. He's just returned back. I don't know if it was any help at all... Seems like he won't admit what was wrong.