Sluts, Whores and Other Fun
Tonight was relatively uneventful. I'm not sure that I'm goin to go to meet the firm tomarrow @ yew tee dee. Only sluts go to that. Oh well. Anyway.
I
Was
Thinking
Do you think that karma or God or Hussys hookin the corner try to tell you st00f?
It's just been odd how people, totally unrelated or unknown, say that same things.
Ok...I know this isn't making sense. Soooo...lemme try to explain.
There have been several instances in the past few days where people have made the comment, "you should do it all or nothing at all." Now, it's been for different reasons that they've said this (sending troops to Iraq, Economic Supply, moving away and starting over, etc.). Well...I started to think about my life.
There are a few things in my life that I haven't exactly put in full-force. I know and understand that I can't put everything in to the max, yet it seems like I haven't put all my efforts into something in a long time. When did I lose that drive? I mean, when was the last time I felt good about accomplishing something? It's been awhile. Things either come way too easy or they don't come at all, or I don't try for them. Basically it's all draggin me down. I'm not depressed or anything, I just feel like my life is at a stand-still.
I'm growing tired of a lot of things. I'm tired of not having money. I'm tired as FUCK of school. I'm tired of my job. I'm tired of being bossed around my incompetent people at work. I'm tired of feeling unattractive. I feel like I'm losing track of some of the people in my life. I miss some poeple, I don't understand others.
All and all these are pretty minor, yeah, it just gets me down. Lately all I want to do is sleep. Well...that could be because of all the new bedding I've bought heh :-D
So yeah. I don't know what my point in sayin all that shit is, really. I don't know what the hell to think anymore. The world is all fucked up, and it seems to be fucking me up in subtle ways. I'm tired of wondering, too. I just wish things were a little more apparent. Should I do this? Should I do that?
I thought about the concept of self-actualization. I wonder how people actually reach that, and again, I wonder if people really do. Surely even Oprah or Ghandi don't truely know themselves. SLUTS. Besides, Oprah's FAT ASS keeps her from being comfortable in her skin anyway.
Maybe that's what self-actualization is, being comfortable in your skin. Then, don't you have it made, don't you feel right with the world? You're good with who you are, how you look, the people you know and love, and the world that you live in. Yeah, good luck to us on achieving that. Working the local QuikTrip doesn't exactly bring fond memories of cleaing up spilled smoothy that drips onto the floor, or a broken 40 that some drunk mexican lost his grip on.
Ok...I think I might be done bitching, I don't know. I'm not sure what my point was. Maybe I'm trying to realize what I should focus on and go with it. I have to admit I've been thinking about getting out of college. Yeah. Ummmm. I don't know. It kinda depends on what's going on in the next few months. Something needs to change though, I need a change in quality of life. As my econ professor would say (the one that speaks english): "When my dad said, 'life has many surprises,' he meant disappointments."
I
Was
Thinking
Do you think that karma or God or Hussys hookin the corner try to tell you st00f?
It's just been odd how people, totally unrelated or unknown, say that same things.
Ok...I know this isn't making sense. Soooo...lemme try to explain.
There have been several instances in the past few days where people have made the comment, "you should do it all or nothing at all." Now, it's been for different reasons that they've said this (sending troops to Iraq, Economic Supply, moving away and starting over, etc.). Well...I started to think about my life.
There are a few things in my life that I haven't exactly put in full-force. I know and understand that I can't put everything in to the max, yet it seems like I haven't put all my efforts into something in a long time. When did I lose that drive? I mean, when was the last time I felt good about accomplishing something? It's been awhile. Things either come way too easy or they don't come at all, or I don't try for them. Basically it's all draggin me down. I'm not depressed or anything, I just feel like my life is at a stand-still.
I'm growing tired of a lot of things. I'm tired of not having money. I'm tired as FUCK of school. I'm tired of my job. I'm tired of being bossed around my incompetent people at work. I'm tired of feeling unattractive. I feel like I'm losing track of some of the people in my life. I miss some poeple, I don't understand others.
All and all these are pretty minor, yeah, it just gets me down. Lately all I want to do is sleep. Well...that could be because of all the new bedding I've bought heh :-D
So yeah. I don't know what my point in sayin all that shit is, really. I don't know what the hell to think anymore. The world is all fucked up, and it seems to be fucking me up in subtle ways. I'm tired of wondering, too. I just wish things were a little more apparent. Should I do this? Should I do that?
I thought about the concept of self-actualization. I wonder how people actually reach that, and again, I wonder if people really do. Surely even Oprah or Ghandi don't truely know themselves. SLUTS. Besides, Oprah's FAT ASS keeps her from being comfortable in her skin anyway.
Maybe that's what self-actualization is, being comfortable in your skin. Then, don't you have it made, don't you feel right with the world? You're good with who you are, how you look, the people you know and love, and the world that you live in. Yeah, good luck to us on achieving that. Working the local QuikTrip doesn't exactly bring fond memories of cleaing up spilled smoothy that drips onto the floor, or a broken 40 that some drunk mexican lost his grip on.
Ok...I think I might be done bitching, I don't know. I'm not sure what my point was. Maybe I'm trying to realize what I should focus on and go with it. I have to admit I've been thinking about getting out of college. Yeah. Ummmm. I don't know. It kinda depends on what's going on in the next few months. Something needs to change though, I need a change in quality of life. As my econ professor would say (the one that speaks english): "When my dad said, 'life has many surprises,' he meant disappointments."