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alrighty, i wrote in here tuesday ... it is now thursday. tuesday after school i really didn't do anything at all, fought with scotty for a good portion of the day. and yesterday after school me and amanda hung out for a lil bit and then she dropped me off at scotty's. i wanted to be able to talk to him about things in person, and not on the phone or throug texting. but i couldn't get him to wake up, and then he was being an assohle and blah blah blah....
and me being the nosey person i am, when he finally got up and in the shower i checked his text messages on his phone to see if fuckin michelle and him were still talking. and sure enough she sent him two text messages today. one said something like "i was thinking about it" ... [ so i'm guessing that meant them getting back together ] and then another one said that she got his msg and she would talk to him later, and to enjoy his days off at work. im like wow.
so i was talkin to him while he was in the shower. and i was like have u talked to michelle lately, and he said no. and he told me shes been texting him and shit. i played stupid and told him i didn't believe him, so i told him i was gunna check his phone. and he was like flipping out and said if i looked at his phone that he would break mine in half or something. soo i was lookin at his texts, and reading them to him and shit. and he gets outta the shower and just like grabs my phone and fuckin breaks it apart. rips the top part off, and throws it. i was just laughing, i'm like wow u r so fuckin pathetic. and he was gettin all worked up and being an asshole about it. so i told him everything i tell him every other time i get mad at him, which is that i hate him more than anything, i'm done with him and alla this other shit. so0oo i convinced him to take me home, which on the way i cried the whole time. not cuz of my phone, cuz i am a moron and should have went with my insticts.
and on the way home he raised his fist to me... not once, but twice. cuz i brought up matt, which is his former friend. but we have been hanging out. scotty didn't know until i told him. he said if he ever saw us together he would kill one of us or some shit like that. and i was bein a bitch and just sayin that whenever me and matt hang out, he actually pays for it, instead of making me. and scotty like acted like he aws gunna hit me. he was just being such a prick. im like fuckin hit me u bastard. but obviously he don't have the balls. sooo many ppl would b on his ass it aint even funny.
soo yeah, we get to my drive-way and he tells me hes going inside to tell my dad stuff. i don't really know what, but i had to beg him not too. so yeah i went inside, called my lover briiiiannna <33 and then like 10 minutes later he called me and was saying how sorry he was for breaking my phone, and he wants to buy a new one. i'm like ... yah now what?? just forget it, i don't want any connections with you. if i let you get me a phone that means u will still be in my life. and he just went on and on about how sorry he is. and i was lettin him go cuz i really didnt wanna talk to him, and he was like "i love you kat" im like "omg shut the fuck up!" and he was like "but i do" but for the first time i didn't say it back, i just hung up. so he called me back AGAIN like 20 mins later just to say how sorry he is. and was begging me to let him buy me a new phone. he was bein so nice ..
soo last night before i went to bed i saw his cousin made the police blotter so i called and told him and then went to go let him go and he kept talkin. so after we hung up he called me right back and was like begging me to go to court with him. at first i said no, but then he was begging and begging. i told him to take michelle =] i told him i wasn't goin there right after school though... so yah. and he wants to go to where we got our phones and see if he can get me a new one..
i'm so sorry all my entries are all about him. i wish i could just 100 percent leave him. i really have to, and i hope i can do it. yesterday i was positive that's what i wanted, but now that time is passed i'm worried i can't do it. if i keep thinkin about how much he has done me wrong i hope i can do it..
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and me being the nosey person i am, when he finally got up and in the shower i checked his text messages on his phone to see if fuckin michelle and him were still talking. and sure enough she sent him two text messages today. one said something like "i was thinking about it" ... [ so i'm guessing that meant them getting back together ] and then another one said that she got his msg and she would talk to him later, and to enjoy his days off at work. im like wow.
so i was talkin to him while he was in the shower. and i was like have u talked to michelle lately, and he said no. and he told me shes been texting him and shit. i played stupid and told him i didn't believe him, so i told him i was gunna check his phone. and he was like flipping out and said if i looked at his phone that he would break mine in half or something. soo i was lookin at his texts, and reading them to him and shit. and he gets outta the shower and just like grabs my phone and fuckin breaks it apart. rips the top part off, and throws it. i was just laughing, i'm like wow u r so fuckin pathetic. and he was gettin all worked up and being an asshole about it. so i told him everything i tell him every other time i get mad at him, which is that i hate him more than anything, i'm done with him and alla this other shit. so0oo i convinced him to take me home, which on the way i cried the whole time. not cuz of my phone, cuz i am a moron and should have went with my insticts.
and on the way home he raised his fist to me... not once, but twice. cuz i brought up matt, which is his former friend. but we have been hanging out. scotty didn't know until i told him. he said if he ever saw us together he would kill one of us or some shit like that. and i was bein a bitch and just sayin that whenever me and matt hang out, he actually pays for it, instead of making me. and scotty like acted like he aws gunna hit me. he was just being such a prick. im like fuckin hit me u bastard. but obviously he don't have the balls. sooo many ppl would b on his ass it aint even funny.
soo yeah, we get to my drive-way and he tells me hes going inside to tell my dad stuff. i don't really know what, but i had to beg him not too. so yeah i went inside, called my lover briiiiannna <33 and then like 10 minutes later he called me and was saying how sorry he was for breaking my phone, and he wants to buy a new one. i'm like ... yah now what?? just forget it, i don't want any connections with you. if i let you get me a phone that means u will still be in my life. and he just went on and on about how sorry he is. and i was lettin him go cuz i really didnt wanna talk to him, and he was like "i love you kat" im like "omg shut the fuck up!" and he was like "but i do" but for the first time i didn't say it back, i just hung up. so he called me back AGAIN like 20 mins later just to say how sorry he is. and was begging me to let him buy me a new phone. he was bein so nice ..
soo last night before i went to bed i saw his cousin made the police blotter so i called and told him and then went to go let him go and he kept talkin. so after we hung up he called me right back and was like begging me to go to court with him. at first i said no, but then he was begging and begging. i told him to take michelle =] i told him i wasn't goin there right after school though... so yah. and he wants to go to where we got our phones and see if he can get me a new one..
i'm so sorry all my entries are all about him. i wish i could just 100 percent leave him. i really have to, and i hope i can do it. yesterday i was positive that's what i wanted, but now that time is passed i'm worried i can't do it. if i keep thinkin about how much he has done me wrong i hope i can do it..
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