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i haven't updated in like forever....oh well. i didn't really have anything to say. i do now but... well i don't really understand the situation im in to even explain it......all i know is i feel unmotivated and kinda depressed. i'm in a funk. i've been working at abercrombie & fitch since december. it's cool i like everyone i work with....and i get more hours there than most of the other people, probably cuz i go to the bars with my managers. but i got a new job at a newspaper, production assistant, pays 50cents more than A&F but it's absolutely horrible working with really old people, i really can't stand the environment there. but i need to make some money cuz i plan on going back to school in october....somewhere far.....far away.....hopefully. i wish i could shut my thoughts off sometimes.....seriously, i over analyze everything,replaying my actions over and over in my head, thinking of different outcomes, what would happen if i did this, how they would affect me later. what if what if what if. i think it's taking a toll on my health too, or maybe it's just that one week here it'll be 80 and the next 40....it's really been fucking with me, and my body can't take it. i need out.
oh yeah....i'm a year older....great
oh yeah....i'm a year older....great