Matter of time

[illegalpunkrkr]

I knew it was gonna happen sooner or later. I just snapped. I've fucking lost it. I'm hallucinating whenever I close my eyes, and it's the most fucked up images. It's the same shit over and over again. My worst fears and insecurities come to life. That's what the fuck I'm seeing when I shut my eyes. You know what I mean. I'm driving myself insane. I want to die. I should be dead. Way too much this time.

I haven't felt this way in years and I won't.