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[illegal_chicken]

i just chucked the biggest tantrum, mum was yelling at me for not wanting to eat some shit that she was cooking.(it contained mince, curry and peas.) and then i just lost it.
i also was fighting myself over Paul.
he is still in love with Amy.
i want him.
i love him.
i know amy is going to go back out with him and i want her too.
if you she does, she wont get hurt.
i do consider he a friend and i don't want to see my friends getting hurt, i want to see them happy and if that is will Paul so be it.
i did it at the start of the year with Paul and Shauna, and Shauna and Adam, and Ross and Jess.
i suppose i'll get over it.
not like people want to see me happy.
he doesnt like me like that anyway.
more than likely doesnt even like me.
fuck him.
fuck you.
fuck this.
i fucking hate it!
fuck.