love and memories [an OAR song...but it fits well for this entry, heh]
ah its storming pretty good out there in that night time. but i like the way it sounds. oh those summer storms.
mmm so this weekend was filled with parties. claires on friday. my cousins grads yesterday. and then we went to my dads like aunts house in chicago for a little bbq.
they, by the way are very old. these aunts. and i havent seen them in like i dont even know how many years. almost forever. but i remember going there one time when i was younger. and when they were younger. and we had really yummy sandwiches. i dont know why i remember that so well. we had some cheeseburgers today. and some yummy cake. and other stuff.
and then on the way home we were driving thru Franklin Park...the town my parents grew up in and the town where my grandma lived and theres alot of memories tied there..because we would go out there alot. and i was remembering when my grandma lived out there. and she used to watch me all the time.
amazing how after all these years all these memories...especially childhood ones, stick with you, and you remember them as if they happened yesterday.
i too, still and struggling with the idea that this is summer. i havent done many summery things. i guess
these parties helped a bit. but i dont know.
i sleep until half the day is over. then i just sit there...watch some tv...eat some food. lots of ppl cant do anything because of summer school. and then on like days when i have softball games and i get up at like 12:30...i dont have all that much time to even hang out anymore. blahhhh
somethin needs to happen.
im excited tho. because 4th of july is like the ultimate summer thing. to me anyways. like carnivals and like bbq's and fireworks and being with friends and celebrating. like idk. gives me a happy feelings.
and plus july 5rd...white sox game. im pretty excited. and then theres fireworks...which tops it all off!
and since im going with awesome ppl [schmidty, suzanne, rusty, kirsten, and mike] it should be funn.
....rusty is a weirdo...but thats okay, i guess.
i hope that the 4th turns out good. the 3rd too. and then after that too and i hope it does give me that good happy summery feeling...and i hope that i can spread that happiness to people who really need it.. one person in particualar
...im sure ya all know who. but he really needs it. he hasnt been happy and i dont know how to help him. but it kills me to see everything getting messed up and not working out for him...even tho he is always trying so hard. Always. and it just blows up in his face. i hate it.
the only thing i can do is be there for him. but sometimes i dont know if thats enough. but at least im there. always. im so unconditional for him. thats how i want it. unconditional.
damn this rain is like coming down so hard. its pretty cool.
i kinda lost my train of thinking.
i couldve gone on longer...because i was thinking of other stuff too earlier and i was like hmm this is something to contemplate and put in an lj entry. but now i dont much remember. and plus i dont really feel like it anymore.
im gonna go to bed and listen to this rain.
G'nite everyone
mmm so this weekend was filled with parties. claires on friday. my cousins grads yesterday. and then we went to my dads like aunts house in chicago for a little bbq.
they, by the way are very old. these aunts. and i havent seen them in like i dont even know how many years. almost forever. but i remember going there one time when i was younger. and when they were younger. and we had really yummy sandwiches. i dont know why i remember that so well. we had some cheeseburgers today. and some yummy cake. and other stuff.
and then on the way home we were driving thru Franklin Park...the town my parents grew up in and the town where my grandma lived and theres alot of memories tied there..because we would go out there alot. and i was remembering when my grandma lived out there. and she used to watch me all the time.
amazing how after all these years all these memories...especially childhood ones, stick with you, and you remember them as if they happened yesterday.
i too, still and struggling with the idea that this is summer. i havent done many summery things. i guess
these parties helped a bit. but i dont know.
i sleep until half the day is over. then i just sit there...watch some tv...eat some food. lots of ppl cant do anything because of summer school. and then on like days when i have softball games and i get up at like 12:30...i dont have all that much time to even hang out anymore. blahhhh
somethin needs to happen.
im excited tho. because 4th of july is like the ultimate summer thing. to me anyways. like carnivals and like bbq's and fireworks and being with friends and celebrating. like idk. gives me a happy feelings.
and plus july 5rd...white sox game. im pretty excited. and then theres fireworks...which tops it all off!
and since im going with awesome ppl [schmidty, suzanne, rusty, kirsten, and mike] it should be funn.
....rusty is a weirdo...but thats okay, i guess.
i hope that the 4th turns out good. the 3rd too. and then after that too and i hope it does give me that good happy summery feeling...and i hope that i can spread that happiness to people who really need it.. one person in particualar
...im sure ya all know who. but he really needs it. he hasnt been happy and i dont know how to help him. but it kills me to see everything getting messed up and not working out for him...even tho he is always trying so hard. Always. and it just blows up in his face. i hate it.
the only thing i can do is be there for him. but sometimes i dont know if thats enough. but at least im there. always. im so unconditional for him. thats how i want it. unconditional.
damn this rain is like coming down so hard. its pretty cool.
i kinda lost my train of thinking.
i couldve gone on longer...because i was thinking of other stuff too earlier and i was like hmm this is something to contemplate and put in an lj entry. but now i dont much remember. and plus i dont really feel like it anymore.
im gonna go to bed and listen to this rain.
G'nite everyone