uppppdate
wow, so going back and reading these entries if nothing else is pretty entertaining. when i read the words it doesn't even seem like i wrote them...a lot of them seem to be about moving into our house for senior year and how it 'is going to be the best year of my life!'. hmm, its not as fun as i thought. first of all, we are rarely here at the same time. we don't go out as much and there have been more fights and shit like that [mostly about dishes and crap like that]. here it is already november. i swear time flys by so fast. in may i graduated [assuming everything goes as planned] and then i have no idea what to do with my life. so many questions. my dad has already hit me with the big one...do you have a job yet? no, i haven't even started looking actually. sorry that i don't feel ready for it. i've never been as sure as everyone else. i have a hard time deciding things on my own...i'm only 20. call me dumb, but i'm not too pressed to get a job right this minute.
my mom has been doing good. she has a place now and a steady job. one good thing about moving back home is getting to see her and my family more. i definitely don't want to live at home though...dad's gf and kids are living there now and i just don't feel at home. kinda like in garden state how they say you are longing for a home that isn't there anymore. it just won't ever be the same.
still no boyfriend. damn close, but baby's mama gets in the way. i've never liked anyone this much. its scary. but hes moving back home in a month so there goes that...hmm. megan brown is getting married dec. 10th and i'm going to be a bridesmaid. weird. i'm most nervous about my piercings and tattoo. i don't know whether i have to take them out or what. i'm sure they will judge me since i won't be holy.
my mom has been doing good. she has a place now and a steady job. one good thing about moving back home is getting to see her and my family more. i definitely don't want to live at home though...dad's gf and kids are living there now and i just don't feel at home. kinda like in garden state how they say you are longing for a home that isn't there anymore. it just won't ever be the same.
still no boyfriend. damn close, but baby's mama gets in the way. i've never liked anyone this much. its scary. but hes moving back home in a month so there goes that...hmm. megan brown is getting married dec. 10th and i'm going to be a bridesmaid. weird. i'm most nervous about my piercings and tattoo. i don't know whether i have to take them out or what. i'm sure they will judge me since i won't be holy.