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[ill_onlyflyaway]

oh fuck, i fucked up really bad, without even realising it.
I took sixteen dexamphetamines today.......
i didnt keep count...

i had the hugest panic attack in the cinema, and was ripping chunks of my hairout in the bathroom
i took so much clonopin and i still am having
a fucking panic attack from hell

HOW THE FUCK DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF?
im not getting better at all

im so sorry god, andplease please
help me to live through this, and please
help me to breathe because dammit
icantbreathe

i cant breathei cant breathei cant breathei cant breathei cant breathe
how do i breathe, please tell me, how could this have happened?
how do i breathe?
tell
me

how.