Relationshipish Meme
I am - and have been - in the mood to essay for a very long time now and while I do have that Fllay essay in progress (3000 words, nowhere near half done, woemo) I ... kinda have the urge to CFUD essay instead sooo
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Fllay has gotten herself to a point where she's honestly not afraid of Yzak; she's no longer threatened by him and feels rather proud that she can remain in his presence for more than five minutes without cowering or burying her face in the nearest person. Sometimes, she antagonises him for that very reason; that statement of 'screw you, you don't scare me anymore!' is empowering and besides, he's a good verbal punching bag.
She sees things between her and Yzak as being very personal. Not only does his insistence upon calling her Natural piss her off (heh, especially since he's, like, the one Coordinator she didn't encounter and insult/attack/plot against) but she's still sore over what happened while she was a prisoner. Actually, her relationship with Yzak is far more personal than any other negative relationship she has at camp. And at this point, taking her interactions with Rey into account, I don't believe even a Raww would change this.
I'm reluctant to say that she hates him. Though they don't get along now and likely never will (if they ever start, I'll cry) and though it is a very personal thing for Fllay, she also realises that Yzak didn't exactly do anything to her and that some of the actions she'd taken were far worse than any of his. This isn't something she thinks long on, mind; she's quite content to sit back and let all her negative feelings towards him fester and stew.
Basically she resents Yzak quite considerably but doesn't consider him someone she absolutely needs to avoid. While she hates it when he jumps on her, she derives too much joy from bothering him to avoid him entirely.
Right now, Fllay's having a somewhat difficult time with Miriallia because she's still upset that she showed up and that she's nowhere near as indignant as Fllay is. She wants Miriallia to hate the place too dammit! That she's less inclined to really rip in to camp sometimes gets to Fllay because of Miriallia's earlier insistence that she's nothing like her. That is all pretty irrelevant though; these are her quiet emo thoughts and don't really factor into their interactions.
Actually, there are a lot of things Fllay just shuts down when it comes to Miriallia because there are so many regrets there. Unlike with Kira, she's nowhere near a point where she'd consider seperating herself from Miriallia but she believes quite strongly that she has a lot to make up to her. Right now, she just doesn't know how to handle it and so she's attempting to press forward as though nothing had happened. Needless to say, she is rather relieved that Miriallia seems to harbour no resentment towards her though she wouldn't blame her if that were to change.
In terms of Fllay's opinion of Miriallia, nothing has changed since SEED. She still thinks of Miriallia as someone she can trust - though not implicitly - and who's fun to just girl around with. She's somewhat surprised that Miriallia associated with Dearka after everything that happened and while I'd like to say she's all awed and inspired, she really just thinks that she's nuts. :P
And then there's Jona. Fllay honestly doesn't have a clue what to think of him; on the one hand, he's far from terrible and he is charismatic. On the other, he's a little eccentric and he did insult her. And he disrespected her 'stay away from me on naked day, dammit!' demand and that's not cool.
Overall, I'd say she's pretty neutral about him and has yet to form a solid opinion. That aside she does recognise him as an Important Person and would try to fall into his favour if she weren't dead. Since she is, however, she doesn't feel too awkward about having had dropped all notion of formality around him. Depending on future interactions between the pair, this may very well change.
... can you tell I just kinda dropped off at the end there? Tiiired. XD I'll do things from Mwu's side and probably expand on these tomorrow. :P
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