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[ill_cry_tomorro]

I want to blame it on everyone but myself.
If I could cheat, he could cheat.
If one guy cheated on me 8 times, whats to stop him from doing it once.
I fought with Jesse everyday, so I'm not used to non-confrontational arguments.
Zach told me he didn't want her, and left me for her the next morning.
But mostly..
If I could cheat...
Then he could cheat.

It's no one else.
It's me.
I hate myself.
And part of it is tearing me up.