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its me
the devil
a current realization
i. will have no one. because. i trust no one. because. i have faith in no one.
you hate me and love kelli cuz she brought her walls down
know why my walls are up?
around scott
look at all the fucked up shit in my life
i wear my fuckin PARENTS wedding rings around my neck
tell me why?
i sit here and i say yes jen i will have thanksgiving wiht you
why doesnt she have it with her husband you ask?
BECAUSE HE FUCKING CHEATED ON HER AND TOOK HER MONEY
shall i go on?
great. dear sarah why are you not going home for thanksgivging
because it makes me feel sick to my fucking stomache that i have to play middle school games with adult situations
CHEATS
LIES
WHORES
FUCKING SLUTS
who could honestly question why i have my walls up
WHY THE FUCK WOULD I NOT FUCKING HAVE THEM UP
whhhhat is this love that we crave?
do we crave it because it is a natural born desire or is it taught? adam and eve? eat the fucking fruit. thats all im saying... life, at 21, should not feel like this. it should not. and i am NOT by any means saying that i have it the worst.... all i am saying is WHY WHY WHY do i have it this way. why did i have love and such a young age? why so much heartbreak? why so much violence in my relationships to only hear i love you and this is why this is happening... why now that im older do i still get broken? oh i know, its like, cuz i make it happen to myself just for the reason that i have to avoid scary hurtful situations liek the ones i had previously. HOWEVER it reaches that. YELLLING. PAAAINNNN. fffuccckkk you sarah. wow like i havent heard that enough.
i thought there was this guy. this great guy.
his flaw?
he was far away. how weird would it be if in acutallity he was the one.
welp
cest la fucking vie.
i need to retire before i get in trouble
the devil
a current realization
i. will have no one. because. i trust no one. because. i have faith in no one.
you hate me and love kelli cuz she brought her walls down
know why my walls are up?
around scott
look at all the fucked up shit in my life
i wear my fuckin PARENTS wedding rings around my neck
tell me why?
i sit here and i say yes jen i will have thanksgiving wiht you
why doesnt she have it with her husband you ask?
BECAUSE HE FUCKING CHEATED ON HER AND TOOK HER MONEY
shall i go on?
great. dear sarah why are you not going home for thanksgivging
because it makes me feel sick to my fucking stomache that i have to play middle school games with adult situations
CHEATS
LIES
WHORES
FUCKING SLUTS
who could honestly question why i have my walls up
WHY THE FUCK WOULD I NOT FUCKING HAVE THEM UP
whhhhat is this love that we crave?
do we crave it because it is a natural born desire or is it taught? adam and eve? eat the fucking fruit. thats all im saying... life, at 21, should not feel like this. it should not. and i am NOT by any means saying that i have it the worst.... all i am saying is WHY WHY WHY do i have it this way. why did i have love and such a young age? why so much heartbreak? why so much violence in my relationships to only hear i love you and this is why this is happening... why now that im older do i still get broken? oh i know, its like, cuz i make it happen to myself just for the reason that i have to avoid scary hurtful situations liek the ones i had previously. HOWEVER it reaches that. YELLLING. PAAAINNNN. fffuccckkk you sarah. wow like i havent heard that enough.
i thought there was this guy. this great guy.
his flaw?
he was far away. how weird would it be if in acutallity he was the one.
welp
cest la fucking vie.
i need to retire before i get in trouble